~My Explosive Life~

~2011, A post to begin but not sure will it last~

2011-01-15T16:49:00.003+08:00

So, here I am...with a random post again...I am not in the very good mood for blogging but I have this interesting thing to share (at least interesting to me)...I welcome all comments and critics as it is a hugely debatable issue~~

I'm going to talk about Positive Selfishness vs Negative Selfishness - I won't call this a theory but it's a concept I explored and discovered throughout my 22 years of life ^^

Positive Selfishness

Well, I will make this short...what I mean here is that WE (YES WE ALL!!!) are selfish in nature...believe it or not, we are...no point denying it...so, let's see how I define this:

1) We are being selfish because we are trying to think of others (might be empathy or sympathy) - HOW? Example: When organizing a party, why some people are excluded? It may be because the group hates the people or felt discomfort with them...I know it sounds negative but don't you all see it happening all the time? Even to me, myself...Think again peeps~~

2) We are being selfish because we are trying to protect our goals, principles and bla bla bla. Example: Why would someone still lend money to a person (be it relative, acquaintances or anyone) when he/she knows that it involves a crazily high risk? YES, some may be forced to do it but what do you think about those who weren't forced? Being a helpful soul, some might really want to help because they feel it satisfies them in doing so..the joy or feeling that heightened up their self-esteem or so (No point debating as everyone has their own viewpoint so alot people might disagree with me, but what I want to say is THIS KIND OF PEOPLE DO EXIST, hence the behaviour as well)

3) We are being selfish because like it or not, it will win people's trust. Example: The honorable Mr. Lim Goh Tong..why would he be so selfish to not listening to other's viewpoints in buying the whole hill in the view of building GENTING? Some of you might say it's bold/bravery...or stupidity or whatsoever and see it as not a SELFISH act..Imagine you are his friend and he told you so...and you tried so hard to convince him but he still did it..IT'S STILL A SELFISH ACT as he did not even care about what others say..BUT you see how successful he is...and he gained all the reputation and trust from everyone...A BOLD/BRAVE ACT can be an act of SELFISHNESS but in a very POSITIVE way...I'm still far from reaching this level but peeps, LEARN FROM THIS..SELFISH IS NOT ALWAYS BAD when you do it POSITIVELY.

Negative Selfishness

1) People engage in this because they just think of their own benefits and so. Example: Some people really just want to piss others off by complaining about a surprise party thrown on them...come on, people tried so hard to throw a surprise for you...just appreciate it, or else why do they want to do it in the first place? They are trying to make these people happy and yet they got smack on their face just like that...can this be deemed NOT SELFISH NEGATIVELY?

2) People engage in this because they feel that it makes them superior. Example: Some people just want to help others (assignment, charity or so) because they feel doing so will make them getting all the respect and thus, they will feel like having a GODLY status. It really may have seemed quite good..but let's analyze this deeper, they help others just because they can achieve what is deemed as SUPERIOR to them...so are they really honest about the help? Are they putting all the effort in doing so? YES, some may really do so because of their principles and so..I admit those who do so deserve a big round of applause BUT what about those who don't?!?!

Well, I do not want to delve into this too deep as I know alot people might feel intimidated, hurt, aggrieved or so with me...I don't mind because I know this will certainly evoke various responses~~I am just telling the truth here...

THE EVIDENCE? Look around your friends and family...start analyzing...because all of you have or will validate this concept of mine..I don't even need to do show anyone...

P.S: I do admit I do practice NEGATIVE SELFISHNESS at times but I am more into POSITIVE SELFISHNESS...some may not agree with me..but I can tell you what I have done is all about my values and principles...and I dare to stand firm on this because IT IS EASIER SAID THAT DONE but I HAVE DONE IT =) AND STILL DOING IT~~

~HELPing?~

2010-10-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

Haha...just a random post...

Where I feel I helped out as much as I could...

And she definitely appreciates it...

Good for her and for me ^^

Really pleased with it...though I wished for something more...

But nevermind, being in such healthy relationship makes me happy ^^

I hope they can hear me and get my blessings~~

Tata ^^

~Perseverance? Stupidity? Naivety? You decide~

2010-10-08T02:31:00.002+08:00

Hey there fellow readers (whoever you are),

I am pretty fine this few weeks..midterms next week and so...gotta be super packed lol..Nothing much that I would like to address here~~

Just wanna rant myself for thinking so much..sigh~~Pathetic me :(

Anyway, recently I have been getting involved with some sort of dilemma..well, not gonna explain in detail but yea..it is bothering me somehow~~Not really sure what to do but definitely I need to seek out for more information and understanding first ^^

After that, I can get myself clear whether I shall go for it or not go for it...the goal is there..whether I should reach it or not and also whether I am able to reach it or not, time will tell~~

TIME, please guide me lol~~Or else I will be lost in somewhere..haha~~

Take care peeps, good luck and all the best in whatever you are doing...

Miss you all~~

~Weirdo~

2010-10-04T01:19:00.002+08:00

As weird as I am, I really want to tell people how unique one could be...

And I always wish that everyone in HELP University College knows how different I could be as compared to anyone else in the university~~

My passion to help people just drives me to go beyond my personal boundaries and comfort zone ^^ It definitely requires alot of sacrifices but nevertheless, I enjoyed it alot!!!

Though I might put others before myself, but I never forget about what I want~~I love and enjoy my life entirely. Nothing I can regret about..

Stupidity and naivety is what people might see in me, but kindness and nice is what other people might see as well..So, it is always up to them to decide who I am...

After all, who would be the helping ones if people like me doesn't exist? Selfishness can lead people to personal glory but once they are dead, what does the glory means? Think about it~~People who have personal glories should be those who could contribute to the younger ones when they are no longer capable of doing up to the pressure and standards ^^

Year 3, Sem 1

2010-09-27T20:52:00.008+08:00

My life in the beginning of year 3 started off very well...

Met a few new wonderful souls that truly brought the "real" identity out of me...

Peggy Neoh (My dear mui who is smart and so photogenic~~Blur at times but can be very nice...)

Chee Yan (A bubbly yet lovely girl~~Fast improving photographers who can really stress-free..can survive the tiredness and produce high quality work - SUPERGIRL!!)

Kelvin Tong (An inborn stand-up comedian who can cheer almost everyone with his jokes~~LOL...a very hardworking person who deserves a shining future in his life ^^)

Jun Hang (Another upcoming good photographer who can be really funny with his narcissism...self-proclaimed "handsome" but his self-confidence is undeniable great ^^ A nice person to talk to as well..can be a good companion and friend~~)

Not to forget some existing friends who somehow light up my life as well~~

Ocella (Nice as ever...bubbly when the need arise :P Can be very cute at times yet very caring ^^ A very nice and warm friend ^^)

Chia Wei (The sifu of photography - Somehow sparks some photography interest in me but still at the minimal level ^^ A quiet person in nature but can be very critical when it comes to topics of his interests~~)

Haha..of course there are more interesting people that has appeared...

Ywan Tyng (The girl with very unique names and features, not to sorry VERY TALL as well)...

Man Yee (A cute girl who is also the best friend of Chee Yan, two lovely girls there ^^) and

Chong Yong (My so-called twin brother LOL)...

See..my life has taken a dramatic change...ever since i met and hung out with such random new souls in my life..though I am not sure how long it may last but I am enjoying it as long as I could ^^ No matter how far these friendships remain, I will never forget what I have gone through with them...weeks of happiness...just knew most of them back then at the Psychology Challenge during mid-August..and some early this month~~

I can never imagine how happy I was whenever I am with them..even if I end up listening only and said nothing at all..I just do not like to speak up there because being me, i am always topicless and I found out that I seriously talk about academic stuffs alot (which bores people of course)..

Oh well, I am still lacking in proper communication skills..will see what I can improve before starting a topic next time ^^

For now, I will keep quiet~~As long as they appreciate my company, that is more than enough and satisfaction for me ^^ I just look bored from the outlook but deep inside, I really loved to be part of them for as long as we could be!!!

Crapped alot today but that underlines the reason why I am a changed individual now ^^ Thanks alot to all of them~~And some of my lovely friends, Xin Rou, Boon Chin, Shean, Grace, Valerie's Ong and Cheah, and many many more ^^

Love you all!! ^^

Love the reflection here ^^

The Bubbly girl (Chee Yan)

A moment I will treasure forever~~

My so-called twin brother here

~One Miserable Post~

2010-09-17T02:07:00.003+08:00

It has been a year + since I last blogged...

No, I'm still not really back into blogging...

Just felt that I got something to express yet it cannot be told directly..

It's just that I feel I'm so dumb for not taking any actions...

Wanted a different outcome but yet too scared and afraid of it~~

How I wish the situation would not be this complicated and I can live far more happier than now!

Now, I can only sit down and pray for the best...knowing that it won't happen to me...even if I go for it...

Arghh!!! Stupid me...But well, as long as everyone is happy..why shall I complain more ^^

~A break~

2009-06-28T15:07:00.002+08:00

Life has been turning in new fortunes for me ^^ Hehe...It's improving and getting better..*happy happy* I do not know why but I am really feeling happy and satisfied with my life recently though generally I might not =P

Anyhow, I am tired of blogging nowadays...decided to just tell people openly what I feel if they asked me...So I will take a break from blogging till I found the mood and urge to blog again =)

Not much to update here...just check out my facebook for more updates...Sorry ya =(

~Lovely Friend Abroad~

2009-06-16T16:40:00.002+08:00

Just yesterday I got to meet a lovely friend from Taiwan through my beloved best friend cum sis, Cecilia..Hehe~~

It was an eye-opening experience for me as I had not spoke to any people younger than me a couple of years for quite some time...now I am really looking forward to establishing a stable and close friendship with her though it may not happen ^^

I am too lazy to blog nowadays...If anyone wants to know updates about me, do look for me in MSN or Facebook...will be online most of the time =)

~Lovely Momento of Life~

2009-06-09T17:39:00.003+08:00

Life is relatively short,
Even if u live till 100 years old,
Without much achievements in life,
Then should it be called a long blissful life??

Should we be even looking negative,
Should we fall into the realm of darkness,
Should we just give up on our life,
Should we just end up getting stucked with no choices at all!?!?!

People often complain about life (me included),
But do we ever think of improving it instead,
Enjoy and cherish the moments of our life,
For it never last as long as any of you had wished.

I am realizing my mistakes now,
Being letting myself down all the time,
Disappointing others in the process,
Making me seem so lethargic and useless.

Now that I realize the VALUE of life,
I am gonna treasure and cherish the moments I have now,
Close family members, best friends, and
The most important of all, EDUCATION!!!

I have regretted over what I have done,
Dun wanna fret more about it,
I will just appreciate what I have here,
People change, I change as well.

Sim Ee will always my closest friend to share stuffs with (both personal and non-personal),
Ming Yoong will always be my best buddy for lots of reasons,
Andy will always be my first ever best friend who enlightened my life,
Cecilia will always be the great sis for me enriched with joyfulness,
Felicia will always be someone I will never forget in my entire life,
Angie will always be someone I respect and adore for her unquestionable qualities of life,
Shean will always be remembered for her continuous support and encouragements,
Xin Rou will always be kept in my heart for her wittyness in various situations,
Shirley will always be my lovely friend who is independent in her own thinking,
Boon Chin will always be adored for her talents in a wide variety of fields.

I have alot more friends than what everyone thought,
It is a waste for not being able to keep in touch with all of them,
But I do hold them tight and dear to my heart,
I really do remember you all.

NS buddies, Schooling buddies, Long-lost buddies,
I enjoyed most times of my life with you all,
I really hope to see you all again,
We might all change alot,
But there is always an essential thing that never changes,
The FRIENDSHIP ^^

I love you all, my lovely friends.
Fiona Wong, I do love you as well, my lovely sis!!!
Yean Sia, same to you!!!
Ivy Leong, not forgetting you!!
Mei Yee, you are included though I have not met you for years~~

~Top 10 Reasons I am Not blogging~

2009-06-05T01:11:00.003+08:00

So many things happened over the weeks of my absence in blogging...

1) I scored only 6.5 / 10 for my Sociology quiz...Damn...laziness strikes me once again~~

2) I am attempting to manage my assignments and studies well..hope I can handle them wisely~~

3) I am tired, mentally but not physically~~Due to LOTS of stuffs~~

4) I am committing (at least trying to) myself to EPIC training club, Janda Baik project, PSG and Bpsych Athletics Team this HECTIC semester...

5) I am missing my friends badly...those who are abroad, especially Felicia and Ming Yoong~~

6) I found out that I have been abit too irritating nowadays, gotta cut down on it...

7) I am happy but yet I am sad at the same time for God knows why~~

8) I am confused about lots of stuffs regarding studies~~

9) I am fed up with virus spamming my MSN!!!

10) I seem to be more immune towards sickness or illness~~

~Short & Quick Update~

2009-05-26T19:11:00.002+08:00

I do not blog much nowadays...just wanna update all my readers abit...

Anyway, I have returned to my singlehood life once again...and this time I have learnt alot of interesting and important stuffs...So I am resigned to being single for time being...probably till I finish my degree because I suddenly felt the urge to lead a single life again albeit it is abit lonely sometimes...

And yea, throughout this period of transition, two important souls came to me...one was my best friend, Sim Ee and another was my good friend indeed, Shean...they both helped me gone through this transition though it is not much...I still appreciate it anyhow...Oh yea, my another cool friend, Angeline did played her role well too ^^

Well, studies is my main focus and concern for now...So I will blog even less in this few months...I am sorry for my dear readers...I will blog more by August yea~~

Till then, adios~~

~Quizzy~

2009-05-19T01:47:00.002+08:00

For any of you who added me on Facebook, do tryout the quiz if you are free, no harm..but I shall reward any of you for scoring above 80...so far, Vanessa has won 1 treat from me..Haha~~

Just felt like making one since most people are doing so...by the way, I never knew there is a person who understands me that much...I am very surprised, Vanessa but I am happy with it LOL~~Thanks for taking the quiz ya...same goes to Adeline and my best friend, Sim Ee~~

Here is the LINK <--- Click here~~

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By the way, I am not going to talk about my Macau - Hong Kong trip as it is too long for me to say it out LOL~~BUT I went to 10 casinos in Macau..HAHA~~And 1 of the casino staff thought I am under 18 LOL~~Swt =.="

Anyway, ate tons of food in Hong Kong and Macau...pictures will be later on ya when I am in the mood for it...Oh yea, Disneyland there was not as good as I expected but it worth the trip for MY first time ^^ Saw fabulous fireworks =)

~Turning Over A New Leaf~

2009-05-19T01:23:00.002+08:00

First of all, it is about me...

I checked my results today and I am personally feeling really proud of myself with the results obtained though it is not that good after all...no A's for me but for 2nd year, I will strive for them~~

Quantitative Methods (PSY 106) - B+

Introduction to Mass Communication (MCH 101) - B+

Introduction to Psychology 2 (PSY 112) - B-

Project Management (PMG 101) - C+

Just felt abit disappointed for PSY 112 as I was aiming B+ for it...but well, this results satisfy me more than enough..just hoping that my birthday present would be better results for this semester's subject =)

Secondly, it is about my friend named Steven Ho Kok Fung..

He has made up his mind and going to depart to Aussie by July...gonna miss him lots~~A wonderful soul in my life to be precise...although I used to hate him when I first met him, but after some time together with him for some classes, it changed my perception entirely...stereotyping is BAD~~

He is a strong-willed person but a soft-faced person just like me except for the fact that my will is not as strong as his...well, I do respect him seriously...I might not had the best of times with him but honestly speaking, he did brighten up my dull life in HMC with my pretty and adorable friend, Choo Wei Ling ^^ Speaking about her makes me miss her even more...the ever adorable girl in my life =)

Not gonna babble on this as he is leaving soon..Steven, I wish you all the best and good luck in walking through the next chapter of your life~~You will do well and fine...so do I!!! No hard feelings on anything bad ya...Do forgive me and I will always forgive you...

Third, it is a short post for one of my lovely friend, Lim Wen Chean~~

I remember your name yea...you may not read this post but I just want to wish you a new journey of life in Singapore soon ya~~I know you will be departing soon as I do read my blog frequently *wink* Hehe~~

We might not chat much but I never forget you at all...you are always my friend together with Janice and Lavonne...just hoping that you all could remember me someday if we ever bump to one another ^^

Chean, I wish you all the best and may rosy future come to you in the NUS~~Good luck ;)

~MIA blogger~

2009-05-19T01:13:00.002+08:00

Haha..I did not blog much nowadays...reason??? Because I played lots of games during my holidays...but now the new semester has started...stopped on games again and gonna buck up or else I will be left out~~Well, many stuffs has happened but first of all, I would like to share something..

I am feeling lost now...not that I really wanted to be but since I took up the responsibilities, I really do feel it...

Am I not able to take up the challenge?? Am I not ready for it?? Haha...guess I am not prepared for it after all as everything happened in such a sudden..LOL~~

So yea, I have no idea how long I could hold myself...as things are getting tougher but I am trying to be in a positive manner to see things out...at least I really do tried though no one actually realized it...

I do regret over something I have done in the past but I do feel it is not my fault entirely...something really does hurt me unintentionally and indirectly...

But anyway, I am fine now, not perfectly but pretty much recovered...no worries...am happy with who I am and not gonna force myself to change...time will says it all ^^

~A must see video~

2009-05-16T21:56:00.004+08:00

I hardly blog nowadays..probably because I do not have the mood lol~~

But anyway, saw this video from Belle's blog..so I wanna share it also LOL~~

It is a great video by an ASIAN studying abroad and it is pretty much a video about him in a game...It is really cool and it is not that easy to make although it may look or sound childish ^^

Here's the link...I lazy to download and upload it...so check it out..it really worth your time to watch it..http://cuzisme.blogspot.com/2009/05/college-saga.html

~Friends All The Way~

2009-04-24T16:48:00.002+08:00

Just read my older posts and spent like 45 minutes scrolling and glancing through LOL~~I did not realize I wrote so many craps and stuffs...HAHA~~

Anyway, I would like to express deep gratitude of thankfulness for those who made my high school life so eventful..HEHE~~Ming Yoong, Andy, Rooban, Terence, Anan, Yun Kit, Mun Tat, Fomiphen, Vincent, Chai, Wei Hao and lots more that I could not recall for now~~Various things happened and they went through them with me...so grateful!!! And yea, Anan and Yun Kit...I thank both of you for staying commited to the Red Crescent Society with me...Though we did not do much for the society but we somehow managed to organize the Annual Gathering...that is a huge success and forget the mistake that we made yea~~Hopefully you all are doing fine and great now, Victorians!! By the way, for those who does not know, I am from Victoria Institution a.k.a SMK Victoria from Kuala Lumpur during my high school years~~Besides that, I need to thank Tyne Sze (Form 6 girl in my school) as well for being nice to me when I was in form 2..I do learn alot from you though ^^ Then there Joanna, Nikki, Caryn Ng, Alice and a few more I cannot recall their names...those are the Form Sixers that I have ever talked to...

Well, I do have a list of friends which I have never keep in touch or lost contact or hardly talk to one another but I did not forget your existence yea~~I will try to list them out and tell me if I miss out your name because I cannot remember all~~

Formerly from S.B.U and S.B.S

Sue Mei, Philana, Adeleine, Swan Boon, Mun Yee, Li Wen, Pui Man, Mei Kay, Sherril, Poh Ly, Kah Ern, Jason, Pui San, Zhi-Ni, Woan Shin, Swee Hong, Su Ching, Samantha Low, Kar Man, Hazel Soo, Linda Wong, Alex, and Alicia Li

Formerly from PESS a.k.a SMK (P) Pudu

Fiona Wong, Ivy Leong, Mei Yee, Pei Wern, Yi Peng, Yean Sia (Went to Tropicana school at Form 3 if I am not mistaken), Merissa Chan, Sin May, Rachel, Sheryn Chan, Brenda, Peggie Lee

Formerly from S.A.B

Wai Kheng, Wai Shen, Serene, Kai Li, Kit Yee, Iris Tan, Yi Syn and Kar Mun

Formerly from St. John

Only one and he is Stanley Low

Formerly from M.B.S (Methodist Boys School)

Zhan Yit, Jonathan Phua, Gilbert Chee and Sze Jian

Formerly from C.B.N (Convent Bukit Nanas)

Jamie Ng, Daphne Ng, Megan Lee and Wei-Jan

Formerly from Assunta

Kit Ying (went to Catholic High School at form 4) and others I forgotten the name =(

Formerly from Dato Lokman

Yi Poh and Andrew

Formerly from Sri Sentosa

Only one and it is Li Yin

Formerly from CHS (Catholic High School)

Adeline Boey, Maple Soo and others forgot name as well =(

Formerlly from MGS (Methodist Girls School)

Wen Chean, Janice and Lavonne

That is all I could remember and most of their faces are still fresh in my mind. Hopefully I can bump into those that I had not meet for years. And hopefully that I am still able to keep in touch with those who remembers me~~Correct me if anything I put there is wrong =)

~Artificial Bread~

2009-04-24T16:10:00.002+08:00

Recently, I saw some news from Hong Kong that the Japanese had came up with these artificial bread for the use of those people who are skiing (No idea how they use it though) Besides that, some even suggested that it can be used to project our anger by squeezing it because it will return to the normal shape after squeezing it, just like a sponge...

However, it is hazardous to children as they do not know what it is..and the chemical is extremely dangerous if anyone actually took a bite of it..it looks just exactly like a bread until you touch and squeeze it...for now, it is only popular in Taiwan and Hong Kong..just wondering if Malaysia ever going to import these stuffs~~

Holidays or not Holidays??

2009-04-24T15:20:00.003+08:00

Haha...I have not being blogging for weeks...well, partially because I am getting lazier to blog...LOL~~Anyway, most people (my coursemates I mean) are enjoying their holidays now except people who had exams with the business department...I am going to sit for my Moral Studies paper tomorrow...have not been studying much for it...was enjoying for the past few days after my last Project Management paper =)

I am pretty happy with my second sem though I might not do as well as my first sem...I admit that I have changed compared to my first sem...I have been a bit lazier on assignments (at least SOME) but I have been more hardworking in studying earlier for the Psychology subjects in this sem (except Project Management which is kind of pissing me off~~) Still, the efforts are not good enough, just hoping that the results will turn out to be the ones I wanted, at least somewhere around my expectations...

I had lots of fun for this sem although my friends are still pretty much the same...Actually, I am glad that I was NOT accounted in this gang or that gang much now...It might be a great idea to be in one but seeing the boring and sometimes unsporting personality of mine, being a loner at times proves to be beneficial to me...Despite that, I still have lots of wonderful and caring friends though...not going to elaborate it here, I will talk about it more in my next post...

Anyway, if any of my readers ever realized why I do not like to put in pictures..now I tell you why~~In fact, I hate to be in pictures as I do not see myself as being photogenic at all...u know, some people are just bad in photos and I have to admit that I am one of them...So, please do not blame me for not taking pictures and posting up pictures...It is not that I do not want to be in the pictures, it is just for the sake of not spoiling the pictures...I know some do not care about it but personally, I have encountered a few situations where it is an issue that need to be resolved >.<

By the way, I have been enjoying my holidays now with games and television programmes although I have exam tomorrow...HAHA~~And I will be away from Malaysia from 28th April till 2nd May~~Have not been going overseas for years..Oh well, parents are saving money for my foundation that time, cannot blame them..HEHE~~I would actually love to thank them because they sacrificed so much for me...My father has been working like a crazy man everyday, seeing him so tired and exhausted each day but still tried to stay optimistic...he does play an important role in shaping my life though...

P/S: I come from a middle-range family with a really average income...that is why I never buy branded goods...not that I do not like them, maybe I would buy when I am in my working years..However, I do enjoy treating my friends for meals because it just makes me so happy to see them eating joyfully...food does make me happy and I want to try to make others happy using this way as I feel great doing so...other ways do not suit me much though...buying presents and all is not what I am good at, but food is not a problem to me, as long as it is affordable...

I love to help people but I do not mind if they do not help me in return, I just need you all to appreciate it...that is all I want~~

P/S too: Kai Jia, I owe you one large triple scoops Baskin Robbins ice cream ya...I will not forget it unless you do not want it =)

~Happy Happy Happy~

2009-04-10T20:20:00.002+08:00

At this time of the moment, most of the students in HELP University College studying at the degree level are going to take the final exams~~

I had started studying, something I have never done for quite some time since my foundation in Arts years..Hmm~~Maybe it is because of someone significant in my life who changed me or maybe something else that I might not know and realize at yet..

I am happy with the stress level I have for now because it is not rising crazily high...some achievement that I hold dear to~~Part of the contributors to this will be my lovely friends (you know who you are =)

Suddenly, I feel life is brightened up...feeling energized to do things again..to select people that deserved to have my help...I will not want to be manipulated anymore ..HEHE~~

~Pre-exam days~

2009-04-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

Being thinking about exams nowadays.. HAHA~~

Life has always being with exams till now...hopefully will end soon...LOL~~

Anyway, I have been busy with assignments but I did take a break by watching the choir competition in University Malaya last Wednesday and just came back from Genting hours ago...

It is good enough for me to chill..now I am waiting to go Macau with my family after the finals...Still thinking how to put surprises for this particular person...hmm~~*Any ideas??*

~Mini Update About Me~

2009-03-29T20:06:00.002+08:00

Just wanted to have a quick update...

I am physically tired now as all the muscles around my body are aching after the treakathon~~

I am still thinking how to finish up all assignments in time =)

I am very happy with myself at the moment...

I am pretty pleased with how things go for now~~

I am sick of being in the rain everyday...a heavy heavy rain I mean...sigh~~

I am trying to get things done ASAP~~Hehe...

GREAT time, GREAT days...enjoyed myself for the past few days despite doing my assignments...hehe~~

Well, that's all for now...I just had a sudden loss of the urge to blog...wondering why~~Hmm...getting lazier perhaps?? HAHA!!! =)

~I realized...~

2009-03-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

I realized that I have been quite stressed up nowadays...

I realized that I have been a little hardworking compared to last time...

I realized that my results are still not up to the standard that my parents expected...

I realized that my life is actually a wonderful one...

I realized that I have wasted alot of time doing nothing...

I realized that I have lots of caring friends around me...

I realized that I have been a little lazy to blog nowadays...

I realized that I deeply miss my friends studying abroad...

I realized that my biggest weakness is my boring attitude...

I realized that I start to love Psychology course now...

I realized that I really cannot talk much at times...

I realized that I really need some working experience...

I realized that I really do not have a sense of humour...

I realized that I have lots of catch up work to do to obtain good results...

I realized that someone is giving me lots of positive aura...

I realized that I start to love the person even more than I expected...

I realized that I try to change myself because of the person...

Lastly, I realized that I have not been the usual me anymore...hopefully I will change for the better...

Anyway, Angie...I am really sorry for not accepting your offer to go to Janda Baik camp because I really do not want to sacrifice your participation for the sake of me...and YOU ARE NOT USELESS THERE ya~~

I know that they do need guys to go there but if there are really empty slots for me, I will definitely agree...Hopefully you will gain a whole new experience there~~

~Temporary Absentism~

2009-03-10T21:27:00.002+08:00

I have been quite lazy to blog nowadays..

So, I apologize first to my dear readers for disappointing you all with no latest posts...

For now, I just want to take a little break off blogging...

Will blog when I have the mood =)

Anyhow, thanks to everyone who support my group's PMG charity event though we did not earn megabucks but I am very proud with the group because we did worked our ass out for this project...

~I am...~

2009-03-03T23:52:00.006+08:00

I am happy yet I am confused...

I am confused yet I am scared...

I am scared yet I am excited...

I am excited yet I am pessimistic...

I am pessimistic yet I am positive...

I am positive yet I am shocked...

I am shocked yet I am surprised...

I am surprised yet I am frustrated...

I am frustrated yet I was hoping...

I was hoping yet I am fearing...

I am fearing yet I am confident...

I am confident yet I am optimistic...

I am optimistic yet I am anxious...

I am anxious yet I am anticipating..

I am anticipating yet I am procrastinating...

I am procrastinating yet I am grateful...

I am grateful yet I am frowning...

I am frowning yet I am cheerful...

Therefore, overall...it still leads to one outcome...the DESIRED outcome...Cheerful (Happiness)~~This post is just for everyone who is worried over some issues...whatever the issues are...look towards to positive way and there you will see happiness...let us pursuit our happiness!!! =)

P.S: Look between the lines...if cannot, then highlight it and see :0

~Prolonged Happiness~

2009-03-01T03:21:00.008+08:00

Recently, I found myself to be really happy and excited about my life all of a sudden...Finally, I am done with my Personal Change Project (A rubbish assignment!!! quoted from Shirley, G., 2009) Out of a sudden, I feel that my life has been blessed wonderfully~~I feel as in I am on the cloud nine...YAY!!!

So yea, I have done the tiring assignment, probably the most head-cracking and nerve-breaking assignment for this semester...But I am really happy that I am done with this assignment and also the Mass Communication Computer Generated Image (CGI) Movie Premiere of Batman: The Dark Knight...

Well, to talk abit about the event...it was hosted at the Theatrette in the Main Campus of HELP University College...it is basically a small scale event but we managed to attract a huge crowd despite all the technical difficulties and stuffs...I personally feel that it was not as smooth as expected but I feel that everyone has done a pretty good job there...especially people like Alvin Teoh and Khaw, Belle, Esther, Adrian, Emma, Michelle, John, Jun Hao and alot more...not to forget, Jian (The brilliant project leader or coordinator or whatever people call it, so to speak)...He is great indeed..I truly respect whatever effort he had contributed towards the success of this movie premiere...Although some might not call it a success, but overall..I do feel we achieve it as we had a full house crowd in the Theatrette...In fact, it is more than that (according to Belle)~~By the way, everyone was entertained by the presence of the appearance of the Joker impersonator named Nicholas...he was a great impersonator indeed *applause applause*~~Besides that, everyone was given an hour talk by a CGI specialist Joey Khor before the movie starts...it was a good speech as I did learn how difficult it is to make a good CGI effect~~

No regrets in the past~~Now I look forward to my future...with all my great friends walking besides me...with my beloved dear enlightening the dim lamps around me...I do feel as in someone has arranged it all for me...I do not believe in God but sometimes, we should give in to HIM once in a while...HE does exist for the good reasons~~I am beginning to love my life now and even enjoying it better...
Thanks to Angeline and Shean whom constantly discourage me from being a negative thinker, Boon Chin, Xin Rou, Yee Lee, Shirley and Jassic whom always show their care for me, directly and indirectly...Yen and Jia Min for always cheering me up whenever I am down~~Cecilia and Sim Ee for being my best friends and giving me lots of encouragements for me to change myself...Yong Jie for always entertaining me whenever I talk to her~~And also to my other friends who supported me in any possible ways!!!!
I dedicate this last part for you, my lovely dear~~Thanks for being with me for this few moments~~I hope it will last even longer than we expected...and we shall proceed to the next stage of life...that's all for now~~Love you lots!!!!

~Essence of Life~

2009-02-27T02:31:00.005+08:00

Life is great huh?? Have not been blogging for quite some time nowadays...due to the laziness of mine and the upcoming assignments and stuffs...Exams have ended and even my quiz is over too.........FOR NOW at least ^^ But well, assignments due dates ARE COMING!!! I need to work like a mad cow now...I am not working towards what I actually planned early this semester though..but anyway, I am happy with my progress currently given that I wasted tons of my precious time thinking and pondering over unnecessary stuffs...

Life with a significant someone and without one is truly a different experience...I am not trying to blab or crap here but it is true...but I am talking about the positive side of cause...HEHE~~I have been wandering around with the tag of "single and ready to mingle" all these while and now I can finally throw off that tag eh~~Well, it is not as easy as it would seem...at least for me...There is alot of sacrifices to be made in order to keep each other happy in the relationship...I have seen quite a number of my friends being in love and broke up after few months and some even few years...I would say it is really sad to see that happening but nowadays, it is like a norm in the world right?? Maybe not much with the elders, but the young teenagers and young adults are definitely getting closer to the norm...I hope I will not reach that norm as I do not even wish to be in that uncomfortable zone...I cannot recall much how many couples I have seen or met that did not manage to go through the bitter parts of their life but certainly, it is one of the most heartbreaking moment to see them in that condition...but the worst of all is themselves...how hurtful is it to be apart from someone we adore and love whole-heartedly and yet, we could not maintain it...that is actually one of my main concerns...

I would say I am a big-time worryfreak, quoted from Ju Yi (my cute and pretty pet sister)...I tend to worry too much..perhaps things are going great for me...it is just that I am too pessimistic about myself and my future...I really need to learn alot in this case...I know I have grown more matured throughout my life...but it is truly not enough...I might be able to satisfy some people but truly I cannot satisfy all...so I hope you can bear with me because I know I can do it for you...but well, it will not be so fast but sooner or later...I will...I am sure of it ^^ I am feeling happy at the moment because I am able to live and enjoy my life albeit some major challenges that put my self-esteem and self-confidence into test...I am very sure I can bounce back even stronger than who I am now...Am going to try to change for a better self to try to please as many people as possible...to anyone that I might had irritated or so, I sincerely apologize here as I have been naive and dull all these while...now that I am feeling determined...I will try my very best ya!!! Honesty is the best policy~~When there's a will, there's a way...

P.S : I miss my whole lot of my friends out there...first of all,

My pet sisters...Fiona Wong, Ivy Leong, Mei Yee, Sianee and Ju Yi~~

My best friends...Sim Ee and Cecilia~~

My close high school friends...Andy Pheh, Ming Yoong, Weng Kit, Jing Yi and Siang Hang~~

My close friends from HELP Foundation in Arts...Felicia (I deeply miss you, sweetie girl!!!), Pui Yee, Wei Ling, Vidhya, Tyas and Michelle~~

My great friends since I enter HELP Foundation till now in Psychology...Burn, Angeline, Boon Chin, Shean, Xin Rou, Jassic, Siyan, Anne Renicca, Vanessa and Ocella~~

My new lovely friends in HELP Psychology course...Jia Min, Yen, Evie, Valerie Chua, Hilary, Oga Chan, Debbie, Rachel, Beatrice, Jordan, Charissa, Christine, Edward, Alden, Jo Lynn, Grace, Chia Wei, Jing Guo, Jun Min~~

The funny and hyper gang consists of Siu Mei, Esther, Belle and Valerie Cheah~~

And lastly, YOU!!! Yes, it is YOU that I miss most~~

Whoever that I did not mention here does not mean they are not important to me...it is just that these individuals play a role in shaping and completing my puzzle of life...BUT I am sure you all did contribute to that puzzle as well...

Thanks alot, guys and girls...I LOVE u all!!!

~PMG Fund Raising Project~

2009-02-22T01:13:00.003+08:00

HEY HEY!!! Have YOU guys and girls noticed the poster about the Self-Defense Class which is to be held on the 4th March 2009 from 2.00 p.m- 4.00 p.m...for more info, click HERE~~It is an important class for those who really want to learn some arts of self-defense for your own safety...it is pretty dangerous nowadays living in Kuala Lumpur...I bet you guys and girls do need it ^^ Give it a try if any of you are free ya~~

Secondly, there is a food sales going on starting on Tuesday, 24 February 2009...If any of you want to pre-order any of the food listed below, please do inform me, Mei Jae, Beatrice, Onn-Yow, Jared, Prabesh or Rachel and we will take down your orders..here are the food that are going to be sold:-

1) Spaghetti (Carbonara & Bolognaise)

2) Blueberry Cheese Tarts

3) Sandwiches

There will be also some drinks sold as a set to those food...more info will be updated in college and here ^^

~Things to DO ^^ ~

2009-02-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

What to blog next eh?? Well, I have no idea lol...just a random one ya~~

Things I would like to do now or soon:-

1) Play badminton as much as I could!!!

2) Run around to train my stamina!!!

3) Chit-chat with my close bunch of friends!!!

4) Watch whole lot of movies that I missed and the latest ones!!!

5) Go out or hangout with my lovely friends (if possible of cause~~)

6) Listen to all my favourite music and songs!!!

7) Eat whatever I can because I did not each much at the week where I got my chicken pox :(

8) Get my haircut as soon as possible!!!

9) Finish up my assignments ASAP too!!!

** 10) Lastly, I want to give more huggies to my beloved one ^^ **

~Post-Midterm Feelings?~

2009-02-22T00:27:00.002+08:00

Well, I have been absent from blogging for six days and GOSH...I missed so many tons of updates from my friends as well...sigh~~Nowadays I cannot find the perfect mood to blog so I just gotta make everything short...

Anyway, midterm exams are over...FINALLY!!! Honestly speaking, I really endured a period of stressful moments throughout the revision times...tired I would say but I suppose it pays off...I might not do very well at the exam..but I am pretty sure I tried my best and I am very proud of myself for such a MESSY last minute study job...

YAY~~Part of my stress and pressures are released at least...I am pretty happy because I have my lovely friends supporting and encouraging me around during this period...in fact, I really want to thank them...Angeline, Shean, Yen, Jia Min, Boon Chin, Rachel and alot more ^^

Overall, I am very excited and ecstatic at the moment!! Feel like punching the air~~YAHOO!!!

~Stressful Days?? Time to work hard ^^ ~

2009-02-15T17:09:00.005+08:00

I am not studying much yet...

I still have Personal Change Project, Project Management Fund-Raising Project, Quantitative Methods Proposal and Research, Moral Studies Project 1 to be done...sigh~~

Suddenly I felt the gush of pressure rushing up to my head...gonna be so stressed up...

But well, I will be fine because I work better with stress...Gonna study tonight..

Things that needs to get started (MUST) :

Personal Change Project - Feb 21 (Straight after exams)

Project Management Fund-Raising Project - Feb 23 and 24 (For now)

Quantitative Methods Research - Need to discuss with groupmates

Moral Studies Project 1 - Feb 23 onwards..after exam week

~Valentine's Day~

2009-02-14T22:55:00.001+08:00

A very simple and short post just to wish everyone...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

Spread the love to everyone...and enjoy the day~~

Cheers ^^

~Moodless~

2009-02-11T19:50:00.004+08:00

I have no mood for chatting now
I have no mood for doing assignments right now
I have no mood to talk right now
I have no mood to study for exams
I have no mood to watch television
I have no mood to play games
I have no mood to keep smiling as I always do
I have no mood to consult anyone about this
I have no mood to think about the problem anymore
I have no mood to be involved in such dilemma again
I have no mood to keep on thinking about anything
I have no mood to do anything other than sleeping now
I have no mood to express myself out to anyone
I have no mood to comfort myself anymore
I have no mood to look for friends now
I have no mood to apologize anymore
I have no mood to see my pale-looking face
I have no mood to change myself anymore, it is just so darn freaking hard
I have no mood to release the pressure in me
I have no mood to commit myself anymore, I just cannot stand myself
I have no mood to force people to stay along with me
I have no mood to force myself till i am out of my mind
I have no mood to laugh it loud as I would do
I have no mood to say something that is not my style
I have no mood to be nice anymore
I have no mood to put up a facade in front of people
I have no mood to worry about others anymore
I have no mood to care for others so much
I have no mood to stay in the comfort zone anymore
I have no mood for everything at the moment

Sorry, I am very pissed off with myself at the moment...Thanks for all your support all these while~~

~Crash~

2009-02-07T22:51:00.001+08:00

Everyone of my friends watched it in the college today...

LUCKILY, I found the movie on the net and managed to finish watching it today...wonderful movie...It is by far one of the greatest movie ever that I have watched...

That's all for the day...will update more next time~~

~30 Things You Might Not Know About Me~

2009-02-05T17:56:00.005+08:00

1) Loves to walk in a strange way...either backwards, side-stepping or sort of hip-hop walking

2) Loves shuffling but never actually train on it...haha~~So i am noob at it LOL~~

3) Loves to listen to Chinese songs but does not study in any Chinese schools before

4) Have a majority of Chinese songs in my electronic gadgets compared to other languages

5) Loves outdoor activities but never had much chances to try them

6) Feeling very anxious everytime I talk. That is why I tend to stutter at times.

7) Still unable to overcome the fear of public speaking

8) Have more female friends than male friends

9) Enjoys seeing people smiling especially girls with sweet smiles ^^

10) Made more Malay friends in National Service Camp than other races friends

11) Got bullied by Chinese friends in National Service Camp because I cannot speak Mandarin

12) Struggled to learn Mandarin during my National Service stint

13) Loves puppies alot

14) Got chased by a cat until I bang my head onto a door at my aunt's house in Australia

15) My right index finger got stucked in an escalator's rail when I was between 10-14

16) I never told anyone whenever I injure myself. Instead, I kept the pain to myself ^^

17) Love to crap alot when the time is right. HAHA~~

18) I am childish in actions but mature in thinking. Serious!!!

19) Love ice-cream very very much!! Till Felicia gave me the nickname "Ice-Cream Boy"

20) Love red and pink colour but tend to use blue and other colours

21) Love hugging ^^

22) Enjoys smiling all the time~~

23) Love travelling very much

24) I am a very quiet person indeed

25) I am really thoughtful but finds it hard to express my thoughts into words

26) Loves computer, console, online and video games

27) I take my handphone everywhere, even into the toilet

28) Loves lollipop to the max

29) Loves to be under the rain because it is coldddddd

30) Enjoys helping people alot

~First sickness of 2009, worst indeed~

2009-02-02T17:55:00.003+08:00

I'm officially fell sick after some long months of being so healthy...sigh~~What can I do...now I am forced to stay at home about a week...oh well, time to gear up on self-study and assignments ^^

~CNY days~

2009-01-29T16:48:00.003+08:00

This holidays are great for me...however, I am pretty lazy here...have not actually studied much...have not do more research for my group assignments and even my individual assignments are pretty much abandoned...gotta pick up the pace and start working like a crazy guy again ^^ Haha~~

But anyhow, I had fun throughout the holidays...the feeling of togetherness with family...it is just so great~~Visited my relatives in the first two days of Chinese New Year...HEHE~~Red packets are not coming in like water this year but I still appreciate it because after all, it is just given as a token of appreciation or respect...I do not really mind about the money ^^

I have been thinking too much again lately...sometimes studying really help me reduce this BAD habit of mine...hopefully it will get better soon or else, I will suffer from migraine...SIGH~~Oh well, I shall be fine soon...hehe~~Missing my friends though...I have never seen them about 1 week but I should really thank some of them for making a small gathering for "lou sang"..THANKS ALOT!!! You know who you are ^^

~Happy Chinese New Year~

2009-01-23T22:25:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is coming..so I decided to make a short post...to wish~~

"Everyone who is celebrating or not celebrating it, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! and also HAPPY HOLIDAYS ^^"

Well, well...hopefully this year will be a prosperous year for everyone ^^ However, one of my friends happened to lost his handphone moments ago...hopefully it signifies the transition of an old item to a new item...whch means the beginning of a brand new life filled with fortunes and luck~~Anyway, I hope this year would be a good year for me...because I am striving for better results in my studies...I need it badly..sigh~~

This few days I had a few dreams but none of them I could really remember well...HAHA~~But I am sure that most of it are pretty bad or negative ones...LOL~~Hopefully I will have more positive and happy ones instead...Life is pretty messed up at the moment...assignments all starting to pile up...need to speed up the process of revising...need the urge to keep me more hardworking...and well, I do have personal issues to be settled off too...Hopefully I could solve parts of them during this CNY...it will be a busy CNY for me because I will be studying and stuffs...although not much, but still...I will try my best ^^

That is all for now...Happy Chinese New Year again, folks!!!! ^^

~Flaws in Communication~

2009-01-17T17:32:00.003+08:00

Well well, I have been absent again for days...going to be weeks...this few days, I have lost the urge to blog...due to some unresolved issues and my pain around my body...guess I have overexerted myself until my body is not feeling right now..sigh~~

Alright, I know this might be sounds like whining or so...but yeah, I really need to rediscover myself...I have had this communication problems ever since I started studying...It is really bad, in fact, it is very very hazardous to myself in the future...it limits my ability to prove myself as a good speaker/communicator...limits my expressiveness...too much to be listed here unfortunately...Recently, someone just made me realized how important a person's communication skills are...I have known this problem all this while..it is just that I do not have the will to change or improve it...

However, I am seriously feeling stuck here as I am not sure of what to do in order to improve it...For now, I am trying to look up on the Internet for information to guide myself...I AM IN NEED OF SUGGESTIONS AND SOLUTIONS HERE...IF I could not find the best ones, I will try to get a counsellor to help me out...I have good listening skills but very poor communication skills...I need to get rid of the poor communication skills...if not, HOW would I be able to go for interviews?? Sigh~~I am seriously feeling lost here...I felt bad for my friends...my beloved ones...and most of all, myself...

~Peer Support Skills Training + A special part for Angeline~

2009-01-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

Today I have gone through yet another tough training organized by the Peer Support Group in order to train me and a group of participants to be mentors in the future...it started at 9 a.m and ended at 5.15 p.m...it was a long long training...some even felt bored of it due to the length of the training...I personally feel tired and at one point, I was so sleepy because the class is so darn COLD until everyone is like freezing there~~Still remember seeing Esther hiding in her jacket..my senior, Pei San putting her arms in her handbag...Boon Chin whining about the coldness and hoping to leave earlier for another event...too many people were covering themselves with their jackets...even guys do it...but not me, because I do not have a jacket =(
Overall, it was a great one as I have truly learnt alot from the training...I learnt about mentoring skills...and most of all, I feel very grateful to be in the same group with Evie and Lynnette for one of the sharing session...it was great to talk to them because they got whole lot of experience and knowledge to share...Really appreciate the knowledge they passed to me and other group members...Lastly, I would like to thank Lynnette for the precious advice she gave me and also the recognition of my effort in trying to be a good mentor ^^

Next, I would like my good lovely friend here, Angeline Lee to be happy...at least try to...I know you are undergoing a very hard time now...In order to protect your confidentiality, I will not disclose your problems here but I truly hope you will be alright soon...you can always come to me if you ever need a listening ear...though I cannot lend you my shoulders all the time...do not worry too much, Angie...I always see you as a positive soul and you shall not show me the opposite side of you...stay tough and strong as you can...and you should get even stronger ^^ I would recommend the song, "Stronger" sang by Britney Spears specially for you...check it out ya!!!

~A Wonderful Birthday for Shirley~

2009-01-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today or practically just now I had a great time with a bunch of friends celebrating the birthday for Shirley ^^ I am sorry because I do not have any photos..reason?? I have never taken any with my handphone...and it is all with Shirley and others...maybe I will upload some of the pictures when I get some from them ^^ Anyway, those who came for the party are Angeline, Shean, Jarrod, Ronald (also known as OBK), Xin Rou, Kar Fei, Yong Jie, Ching Ai, Jassic and myself...It was a wonderful and great outing for me...I never had a karaoke session lasting for such a long time...it is 6 hours you know...everyone is like screaming around there LOL~~By the way, all these took place at The Gardens, Mid Valley ^^

Not really going to talk much about it...too much to talk here...HEHE~~Anyway, I happened to bump into my Statistics lecturer who taught me during my time in the Foundation in Arts, Madam Mary Thang...and also two great friends of mine in Psychology Department...not going to say who are they..*protecting their privacy*?? HAHA!!!

Alright...besides that, I finally got all my results already...well, I would say it is not a very good one..but I am more than satisfied with them...I do not want to boast anything about my results...I just feel good to blog about it...Anyone who want to comment on it, please feel free to do so...So, here are the results I obtained:

PSY 110 Career Guidance and Preparation for Psychology 1 - A-

PSY 105 Research Methodology - B-

PSY 111 Introduction to Psychology 1 - B+

LLS 101 Leadership and Life Skills - B+

MC 100 Social and Business Communication - C

Overall, I got a 3.25 CGPA for this first semester of mine..Pretty good for first semester...Gonna work alot more harder now to obtain higher grades...till then, ciaoz~~

~Greatness Of First Day, Second Sem~

2009-01-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of my second sem of my Bachelor of Psychology program...I have waited long enough for it to start yet I do not feel that happy after all...Firstly, like what Siu Mei grumbled about, the air-cond in that classroom is freaking HOT but I am used to it..so I do not mind much of it...Secondly, I was abit too tired today during the classes...the class starts from 11am and all the way to 4pm...but I accompanied my dear to her MC100 class today as well...and so I ended up going back at 5pm ++ but it was fun going to class with her ^^ By the way, I need to thank Shirley alot for sending me home...gotta treat her someday...HEHE~~

Anyhow, I am quite happy today because I get to meet my friends once again...all my lovely friends in fact ^^ I would say that I really miss them alot...glad to be seeing them again...

Nothing much to say here...feeling pretty nervous with my results which will be released soon..sigh~~

~A new beginning for 2009~

2009-01-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

Well, 2009 is here...and my 2nd semester is coming as well..being having headache and sleepless nights nowadays...still unsure of what elective to take...sigh~~Hectic life...pathetic feelings...I feel like I am becoming an idiot who has lost motivation to study...but I shall try to find my way back!!!

Anyway, I have being thinking too much nowadays...sometimes I an just not satisfied with myself...felt like I have disappointed quite a number of people..particularly my loved ones..sigh~~I wonder when can I stop disappointing them..I just found out that sometimes it is just too hard to get the ball rolling...I am trying hard to learn but it is really beyond my capabilities...

I am beginning to feel LOST~~Sigh...gotta try hard to find myself back..the REAL me...

~New Year Resolution?~

2008-12-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

2009 is coming...I am still not sure of my resolutions because I do not have any all the while...but this year I have 3 important resolutions!!!

1) Hopefully all my beloved friends will be living a healthy life and a highly successful career in the future...whether I am close to them or not...I never forget any of you all because you guys and girls are important to me in shaping my life~~

2) Hopefully I can score well for all my subjects in Bachelor of Psychology...aiming for First Class Honours...

3) Hopefully I can overcome all the incoming and unforeseen challenges with my dear no matter how hard the challenges are...

That is all I suppose...Happy New Year 2009!!!!

~Good Bye, 2008~

2008-12-31T22:12:00.000+08:00

Alright..I have been absent from blogging for quite some time AGAIN...well, this time is because I am really having a wonderful time relaxing at home...playing games, chatting and helping mum with stuffs..Had a good break from the hectic life in Bachelor of Psychology...HEHE~~Overall, it was a great holiday for me...a sweet escape eh?? Haha~~

It is just about 1 hour more to the new year...It is time to WELCOME Year 2009 ^^ Life in year 2008 is not a very good year for me but it is not bad either...As usual, there are lots of ups and downs in life...and this year I had spent an ample amount of time with my good and best friends from the first half of the year till before finals...after finals~~~here I am, sitting here blogging and relaxing...never actually go out much due to cousin's visit...went out most of the time with family~~

Overall, 2008 is considered as a great year to me...Let's see what can I list here~~

1) Settled with my Foundation in Arts and entered Bachelor of Psychology in HELP.

2) Gladfully have 2 new best friends by my side, Cecilia and Sim Ee. Felt grateful as well ^^v

3) Enjoyed much of my time spent with my wonderful bunch of foundation cum psychology degree friends, particularly Angeline, Boon Chin, Shean, Shirley, Yee Lee, Vanessa, Ella and lots more.

4) Of course I will not forget my lovely friends, Luqmal, Yong Jie, Ronald's (got 2), Jarrod, Steven, Rachel and too much to list out...Wei Ling, I miss you alot ya...do find me if you are free next time...I had a great time with you in Foundation year ^^

5) Successful application for the PTPTN loan...after some troubles on that disastrous day...

6) Knowing new friends in Bachelor of Psychology...they are great and fantastic!!! Rachel Chia, Edward, Alden, Christine, Shireen, Oga, Evie Chuah, Hillary, Valerie (got 2 also), Cady, Candice...well, just too much to list down as I just love to know more friends...BUT Jia Min and Zi Yen are those that I will never forget...the 2 funny girls who like to bully me..HAHA~~Oh ya, and the ever hyper gang consisting of Siu Mei, Belle, Esther and Valerie ^^

7) Participated in the wonderful life changing experience with the PSG (Peer Support Group) of HELP...which is the PSG Search-In Camp...A camp which allowed me to explore more about myself and brought me and my dear, Valerie together as we get to know each other there...

8) Had a wonderful time in the Leadership Camp during my Foundation year...it is an exciting moment where my leadership skills are tested because I am the Headmaster of the whole bunch of people there...I deeply miss my team members...Kar Wah (Team Leader), Emily (in the same degree with me now), Prabah, Sim Ee (my best friend, all thanks to the camp), Jean (studying business now) and Pang.

9) Missing those people i have written in this post alot...still waiting for the chance to meet them again...Well, Felicia...I truly miss you alot...I will be waiting for you to come back for a visit to Malaysia or if possible, I will visit you in Indonesia (if I have enough money ^^) By the way, I am going to miss my sole guy best friend, Ming Yoong as well...he is going to Manipal, India pretty soon...anyhow, congratulations on passing your driving test!!! At last...after lots of hesitation eh~~

10) Lastly, to conclude the list...I have met someone who plays a crucial role in my life now...a girl no other than Valerie Cheah...really feeling so grateful and lucky to have met you...much thanks to the PSG Search-In Camp as mentioned earlier...I am looking forward to the challenges ahead of us, dear ^^

~Tagged by Chia Wei~

2008-12-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

A little tag by my new friend, Chia Wei..just something for me to blog on when I am too lazy to write a new post...though I do have some in my mind...Anyway, here goes the tag~~

1. What’s your ambition?
Make lots of friends but also help them through with their life...hope to cheer everyone up by listening to them and try to help them with whatever I have and I could ^^

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Hehe~~Good question...I would say friends is my top priority but at the same time, I cannot afford to forget my girlfriend as well...she plays a crucial role in my life ^^

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
I do admit I have thought of it before..maybe like 4 times perhaps...I do not remember but I do seriously felt like it before...BUT not anymore ^^

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Well, I would say I am building it up now...so, for time being I am not having enough yet...

5. How many babies you want?
Preferably 2 or 3...However, it depends on whether my dear wants to have more or less...I am pleased and satisfied with 2 or 3. Just nice enough for a good family...but more is also good ^^

6. Favorite perfume/fragrance?
Haha...Sad to say...I do not use any of those before...not even once in my life...Pretty pathetic huh?? Sigh~~I just dislike using them...no idea why~~

7. What do you think will be your greatest downfall?
Being too analytical and sensitive at times causing myself to be quite inconsiderate sometimes...It will make me moody as well and that is really bad to my friends as it makes them worry alot about me...

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
I do not believe much when I broke off with my ex last time...But now, I do believe in it..and hopefully I can make it an eternal one...We shall try our best ya, dear ^^

9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to you?
I do not see perfection in anyone...but I wanted one that is caring, lovely, considerate, simple and nice...and I found all those in you, dear...Actually, there are more great stuffs about you, dear ^^ Love you lots..muacks!!!!

10. What are your bad habits?
Procrastination is one of them...Lazy also I presume...Extreme modesty (I know it is bad but I am trying hard to change)...Being too childish at times (maybe all the time~~)....

11. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
Erm...If anyone do hate me, please step forward and tell me...I will not eat or punish any of you...I just want to know the truth ^^ Just as simple as that~~

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yesh!!! Friendships are supposed to be eternal actually...but well, to maintain a good and healthy ones is never easy...And I admit I cannot maintain each of them equally...BUT I do cherish every single friendship of mine...even with my enemies (If there are any ^^)...

13. What do you hate most in others?
I do believe everyone is unique...so there is nothing to hate about...If it is not a good attitude or so, just try to change it...we should not hate others because they are used to a life like that...we must help them to change as well..directly and indirectly ^^

14. What do you crave for the most currently?
Great results for my subjects in my first sem of Bachelor of Psychology course (Hopefully ^^) and well, my beloved friends especially Sim Ee, Cecilia, Shean, Angeline and Ming Yoong and most importantly, my dear (Valerie Cheah!!!)...

15. What features/quirks do you find totally sexy on a guy/girl?
Guy huh?? I do not know about that...but for girls, I do feel that having a sweet and cheerful smile is sexy enough...no need to be too extravagant...

16. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
A friendly yet quiet and witty guy ^^ (You are a great person indeed though I have never told you that personally)

17.What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
Haha..simple~~Smile more, eat as much as I want, doing crazy and insane stuffs, being childish and arguing/chatting/shouting with my family...

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
This reminds me of group counselling...HAHA~~10 years eh...well, get into my dream job (Counsellor) and also participate in some social works/projects in Australia or anywhere abroad hopefully...get married and settle down with my dear as well (Hope she would agree with this as well!!!)

19. Whats your guilty pleasure?
Daydreaming I suppose...or even dreams at night?? HAHA~~OH YA!!! DISTURBING PEOPLE IN MSN...LOL~~

20. I tag:
Valerie Cheah, Rachel Chia ^^, Esther, Belle, Li Yin, Lynnette and Ivy...And whoever who wish to do this...No worries if any of you all never do it, no punishment will be given..LOL~~

~Exams + Her~

2008-12-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

To tell everyone the truth, I have experienced a wonderful and truly meaningful transition of life on the 4th of December, 2008...Before that, there are so many stressful periods throughout this week and also last week...finals is killing me actually...HAHA~~Still able to cope with it well, thanks to my friends out there who helped me through...It had been a hectic yet fun weeks for me...still got 1 paper left though..and it is just 2 days away~~The killer LLS101 paper...I have not even read the textbook at all..need to study 16 chapters in 1 day...how could I do it?? I wonder~~~

Although I have been absent from blogging for about two weeks..but there is seriously nothing much that had took place over those two weeks except for pure studying, revisionsssssss and examssss...but well, today I had a long chat with one of my newly found good friends around, Zi Yen...Have some deep talks with her just now...glad that I could help her...even a little bit...feeling so happy and relieved for her...

Now I want to talk about my transition of life..HEHE~~It all happen on the date I mentioned above...a day that I will never never forget in my life...it is stored in my LONG TERM MEMORY already..LOL~~On that very special day, I had a long chat with a girl named Valerie Cheah and I actually knew her for just about 2 months now...but she has brought some positive changes in me...HEHE~~Life is getting better at the very moment ^^

Well, on that day...I asked her something...and she agreed to me happily...I would say that is the greatest thing that ever happened to me to date...When I knew it that time, I was jumping like a mad person but obviously I could not show it at home because of my parents and brother...Since I was young, I was not allowed to have a girlfriend even till now...Therefore, I cannot let them know about this but I am really really glad to have her as my girlfriend...It is a very very special moment to me that has changed my life entirely...

She is wonderful...she is so nice...I never regret at all being in a relationship with her...She is a girl that is so rare nowadays...I do not think that I can find anyone like her anymore...At first, I really thought that she is just a nice girl...but after chatting a while with her, I found out that she puts friends as her priority before boyfriend...which is exactly the same case with me as I always put friends first before girlfriend...we are pretty similar in our thinking and our aim from the relationship...we understand what we actually wanted from it and we truly feel happy together...

There is just too many to write about her and some events or stuffs are better kept confidential to just both of us...that is all I want to tell about her...Seriously, get to know her and you will know how good is she...I never knew a girl that I have just known for 2 months ++ will be my perfect one...I would not say that she is the love of my life because I am really not sure what the future that awaits us but I really hope it will be an ever-lasting one...I LOVE YOU ALOT, VALERIE CHEAH!!!!!

~Quarantine!!!~

2008-12-04T01:17:00.000+08:00

This is the last scene~~

Part of the horror scenes~~

If this is not scary enough, go watch it!!!!

That is the movie I watched yesterday night at 9 pm and reached home at 11.30 pm...sigh~~So tiring...A horror movie which has only a few horror scenes...other than that, mostly boring ones...guys and girls out there, you can have a go at it but mind you, I do get a mild headache during and after the show...try it out, folks..it rocks though!!!

~Losing the Momentum~

2008-11-30T15:57:00.000+08:00

1 week of absence from blogging...due to assignments...I have not even studied / revised for my exams which will start on the 9th of December...omg!!! Time management is pretty bad at the moment...my Uncle and Aunt just came to Malaysia from Aussie recently...so I was abit busy this few days as I need to accompany and entertain them as well...

Well, after moments of procrastination and some unforeseen events...I have finally completed my PSY111 lab report albeit it is a messy and "cacat-ed" one but I am not going to edit or modify it anymore...I have spent too much time on it and I gave up on it already...I am pretty pleased with myself for coming up with such report, considering I have never done any reports like this before...*high 5 to myself* LOL!!!

I need get myself to study soon...at least reviewing the books or notes will do..for now~~But now, I am going to play some games to calm myself down..and for relaxing purposes ^^

Thanks alot to all my friends who are concerned about me...even a little bit meant alot to me...I am very happy and pleased to have known you all..but credits go to Sim Ee and Cecilia..my two best friends who are always there for me to cheer me up...to help me...to guide me...and so on ^^

*I am sick at the moment...please wish for my speedy recovery...anyway, Fiona..thanks for reading my blog...I miss u alot...along with Sianee mui mui...*

~Charity Movie Day Out~

2008-11-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

Another short update about my life...today I had a great and wonderful day...It is charity again as usual...Although I seldom participate in charity events, I do love the join the charity events...as long as it is for the society's good, I do not mind helping them...I really enjoy doing so ^^

So, today I went to Cineleisure, The Curve to watch Bolt...the funny animated movie lol~~Haha!!! I really enjoyed the show...especially with my funny and nice friends around...It is really a great day for me because it had been such a long time since I last watched a movie in a cinema...PLUS this movie made me laugh alot...and of course, my friends do play a major part in making me laugh too~~Basically, only me, Yen, Evie and Jia Min were there...I mean those from HELP...others are just some other charity do-ers and participants...oh, not to forget; THE ORPHANS as well ^^ After the movie, I had my lunch with Jia Min and Evie at Kenny Rogers...later on, we went "shopping" around...while "shopping", Yen came to join us and we continued LOL~~The whole thing ends about 4 something...really late for me but I loved every single moment I had today...

Thanks alot to my lovely friends, Ng Zi Yen, Leow Jia Min and Evie Chuah!!! They all made my day...and in fact, it was a super happy one for me...a day break off my assignments...These are all my new wonderful friends in Bachelor of Psychology and I never expect that I would enjoy the time spent with them so much...particularly Jia Min...found out a very unique character in her...Hehe~~

The funny and energetic Jia Min ^^

The 4 of us...I am getting fatter...sigh~~

~Jumbled up~

2008-11-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

There are lots of stuffs happening throughout my days of absence in blogging...might not be able to say it out here due to time constraints...sigh~~Well well, I had done a pretty bad job today in my presentation..so ya, I am still satisfied with it because 1 down...1 more to go...

*I have tons of stuffs jumbled up in my mind...gotta find someone to talk to someday~~*

~Shorty Morty Post~

2008-11-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

Haha~~Just a simple post to inform you all that I had a great day yesterday...a wonderful *surprise* birthday party for my sweet and lovely friend, Lim Yong Jie!!!! Well, pictures are not with me yet..will upload it here once I have it...hehe~~

Nothing much to update except for that..gotta be real busy with assignments this whole week...need to finish all up and start studying for finals next week...so I shall be absent from blogging for 2 weeks or so...until my exams officially ended~~Sorry ya, folks~~

~Tagged by my cousin~

2008-11-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

Instructions: Complete the tag below. Tag 10 people. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.

1.The last person to tag you is?
Lynnette

2.Your relationship with him/her?
Cousins

3.Your 5 impression towards him/her?
friendly, playful, cheerful, funny, talkative

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?
Chit-chatting with me?? Lol...do not remember much~~

5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you?
I do not remember either...

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
be shocked entirely because it will never happen~~

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
I do not know...never even thought of it~~

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...
Nothing...as we can never be lovers~~

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
Some major misunderstanding perhaps???

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
To help her with her problems I suppose ^^

11. Overall impression towards him/her is...
A very nice girl to mingle with...

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Shy, quiet, "emo", too humble, lame, crazy ^^

13. The character for you for yourself is?
I am myself lol...I do not know how to describe myself...

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
shy, stage fright, think too much, lack of confidence / low self-esteem, ignorant at times T.T

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
A confident person living a simple life~~

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
Thanks alot for all your care and support!! I appreciate it and I love you all!! Do find me when you need me~~

17. Bra or panties?
Neither of them are suitable for me...

18. Chocolate or ice-cream?
Ice-cream

19. 10 people to tag. (It is ok if none of them actually did it...I do not mind ya ^^)
1. Belle
2. Esther Ong
3. Rachel Chia
4. Ivy Leong
5. Owe Li Yin
6. Jason Low
7. Siu Mei
8. Jia Min
9. Grace Boey
10. Wei Ling

20. Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
I do not know lol~~Someone...HAHA!!!

21. Is 3 a male or a female?
Female~~

22. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing?
Oops...two girls...better not!!!

23. How about 5 and 8?
Also same...NO WAY!!!

24. What is number 1 studying about?
Studying about manga drawings?? Anime?? HAHA!!!

25. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
In the past few days...

26. Is number 4 single?
Yup~~Hmm....

27. Say something about number 2.
Animaniac?? A good cosplayer ^^

28. What do you think about number 3 and 6 being together?
Interesting...Hmm~~

29. Describe number 9.
A wonderful friend of mine...very influential to me ^^

30. What will you do if number 6 and 7 fights?
I wonder what will happen...cannot imagine it >.<

~Specially for you, Grace Boey Sze Ni~

2008-11-11T19:50:00.000+08:00

Well well, since you had dedicated a post for me...so here it is, a reply to your post and also additional stuffs that I would like you to know...Hehe~~Before that, I would like to say millions of thanks to you...I am very happy to read that post of yours...it means alot to me...alot more than what you think...I would like to express my gratitude to you as well ^^

To start it off, Grace Boey Sze Ni is virtually unknown to me at first when I first started my Psychology degree studies...I still remember we met because of the occasion where she needs to contact someone (I forgotten who...I think it is her parents if I am not mistaken)...Firstly, she went to ask Steven to borrow his handphone but his phone is out of credit...Coincidently, I was there and I offered mine...that is the day which brought us together as friends~~And it is only two months ago...which is about 63 days ago...

And within two weeks, we got close really fast...something I suppose none of us or even anyone else would have expected...it is actually similar to the case where I met my best friend, Tan Sim Ee though but this one is a little bit special because we created some bond that makes me enjoy the friendship so much ^^ Not to say my friendship with my best friend, Sim Ee is bad but it is entirely a different situation~~So back to her, the closeness we share has enabled us to be quite open to one another and we had fun spending time together, on the net and in college...hehe~~

Speaking of closeness, I even agreed to become her secretary...something that alot people said is childish but I challenge you all out there to try it!!! It is not EASY~~At first, it is just a secretary-boss relationship but later on, I was sort of her personal assistant as well..Haha~~Why did I call that?? Well, this is because I tend to remind her about lots of stuffs...from assignments to her personal appointments (obviously not all her personal appointments..HAHA~~) ...there is too much to talk on this so I will cut it short...It is really fun to be doing those...I never expected it to turn out to be such happy responsibility for me...I do learn something from it ^^ However, now I am no longer her secretary due to heavy workloads on both of us...but then, I still miss the time being her secretary...*Thanks alot for your compliments that I am a very good secretary ^^v*

It is great although our closeness only lasted for weeks but our friendship will not last that short~~Hehe...we still have a long journey to go on with, my dear friend ^^ Throughout those weeks, I have learnt to become more optimistic...I also learnt to be a positive thinker...it is wonderful experience for me...I still remember and MISS the time where you sat beside me everytime you came for classes except for MC100...the time where I need to tell people that I need TWO seats...the time where you told me wonderful stories of yourself and your friends...the time where we laughed and giggled together...the time where we share our knowledge of whatever we talked about...the time where we praise one another for no clear reason...the time where you gave me the chance to be a good secretary cum personal assistant...and lastly, the time we enjoyed each other company...

There is just too much to talk about you...I shall STOP by now...you know more than this right, my dear friend?? Hehe~~Although we are not as close as last time, but seriously I enjoyed every single moment I had with you...We are still friends...close friends in fact...So, you do not need to worry about it...The little mishaps that happened few weeks back are all settled...

You said it is a blessing to have known me...I would say it is more than a blessing for me to know you...You might not know much of this but you brought a few positive changes to my life apart from my best friends...I truly appreciate what you have done for me (You may or may not realize it but you seriously did ^^)

I will also be always here for you as well...So, do not feel shy to find me when you need it...Whatever it is, I am going to help you out..encourage you...support you...and whatever I can do for you...I will look for you when I really need it, for I still trust you alot for giving me such comfort to talk to you...Thanks again, my dear friend... I FELT SO HONORED TO BE GIVEN AN ENTIRE POST SPECIALLY FOR ME ^^

*As for badminton session, I had included your name each time there is one...but whether you are going or not..that is still up to you to decide ^^

~A Rojak Post~

2008-11-11T18:25:00.000+08:00

Today is another great day of badminton session...this time is a whole new experience for me because Angeline, Boon Chin and Shean are unable to attend it...Shean, please take care of yourself ok?? I am worried about you ^^ Hopefully you will recover very very soon~~ So yea, today there is a total of 8 people who went for the session...As usual, me and Yee Lee are the regulars...PLUS newcomers Eric, Alicia, Jacqueline, Yogi, Lingga and lastly...the friendly and lovely girl, Yen!!!! I bet this is one of the greatest session as I had tons of fun...just like last week...I played like a crazy person but well, I enjoyed it alot...I need to thank everyone who came for it, especially Yen...because I really love to play with her ^^ Hehe~~

Well well, besides badminton..there are a few stuffs that I would want to share here...First of all, Rachel Chia~~I am fat laaaaaa...you cannot deny the fact ^^ And I am always concerned for my friends...so you will not be left out...so you do not need to thank me so many times ya...as long as you are happy and feeling better, I am already feeling grateful!!!

Secondly, Sim Ee and Cecilia (my two most wonderful best friends)...Good luck with the assignments ya...I know both of you got tons of assignments to do...I have too, but well...If any of you need help, please come to me...I am here to lend a helping hand ya ^^ Whatever my best friends ask me, I will answer...hehe~~

Thirdly, for all the SPM and STPM students out there...Good luck and all the best to you all ya!!! My juniors, seniors, friends...Study smart ya!!! I know you all can do alot better than you all expect~~Keep pushing yourself...there is alot of bright hopes for you all!!! Gambate~~ My cousin, Lynnette...try your very best for your SPM ya...I will be supporting and encouraging you here ^^

Forthly, I am sorry to my another cousin, Fen...Hehe~~Really sorry for a late birthday wish though that time is still your birthday...I hope your PMR results will turn out to be a FANTASTIC one ya...must be an excellent one ya!!! I cannot wait to hear good news from you and your sis, Lynnette...I am sure both of you sisters will do well...I have faith and confidence on both of you ^^

Lastly, I would like to thank my friends for enlightening and entertaining my life...it is not dull anymore...I truly feel the difference now...I will not list down the names as for now...because you guys and girls know who you are ^^

~8th of November 2008~

2008-11-10T17:24:00.000+08:00

So, this is one of my most memorable day is my whole life...and I bet I will never forget the wonderful day where I had tons of fun and at the same time, learnt something new...It was all about the ACP (Active Citizenship Project) at first..but well, when me and my group reached there...it is not just about ACP anymore...It is more to doing things together with the people there...We have 24 people all together there including my group which are Joseph, Isaac, Jeremiah, Michelle (I forgot if this is the spelling), Simon, John, James, David, Lewis, Grace, Victoria, Yohan, Matthew, Esther, Samuel, Jude (Do not know how to spell his name as well), Foo Huey? (I do not know how to spell his name; he is not living there though)...Hopefully I did not miss out anyone...By the way, I need to thank my group for the wonderful trip there...a great experience for me... Thanks alot Jo Lynn, Chun Chiat, Shireen, Julian, Edward and lastly, Christine!!!!

First of all, John loves me lol~~He likes to sit between my legs...Miss him~~

During the ice-breakers

Jo Lynn in action ^^

You hardly see me smile as happy as that ^^v

She is like a disciplinarian there...cool~~

Helping the people with their artwork~~

The process of T-shirt Painting

First time jelly makers' product...the taste was awesome for a first-timers!!!

Final product of the painted T-shirt~~

It looks nice when you wear it as well..HAHA~~

The wonderful group of mine...plus an outsider from the home ^^

Incomplete group photo..some were sleeping and some went out~~

The candid one..HAHA~~my tilted head LOL!!!

Anyway, besides the ACP thing...I have some other stuffs to blog here...Firstly, Yen and Shean...I will give both of you the jellies once I have made it...I doubt when I will make it HAHA!!! Secondly, to my beloved friend; Rachel Chia...Please do not be so pissed off ok?? I know there is lots of issues happening that surrounds you...come to me when you need it...I will be always here for you ^^ Thirdly, to my old my friend; Owe Li Yin...we really never meet for such a long long time...please take care ya~~If got problems, feel free to find me ya, just like the other day ^^ What else eh...hmm~~Oh ya, Jia Min---> thanks for introducing me to Facebook games LOL!!!

~Yippie for Happy Day~

2008-11-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

Had a wonderful day at the home for the ACP project today...I am so happy today..feeling great~~ Will blog about it tomorrow or some other time when I am free and not tired ^^

Anyway, guess what?!!?!? I went online today to send my part to Boon Chin at about 7.45 a.m but I end up editing the whole part due to some reasons and sent it to her about 8.25 a.m...OMG~~I knew I did a pretty bad job...I sincerely apologize for it because I guess I am just a bit stupid and useless at times right?? Oh well, but I shall improve from now on...This is bad for me and for the group...I cannot keep this kind of work anymore...Please teach me, please advise me, please help me...whoever it is~~

The best thing that happened this morning is the occasion where Jia Min is online LOL~~It is surprising to me because I hardly meet people who online that EARLY~~Jia Min, thanks alot for putting my name in your blog once again...although it is only twice, but that is more than enough...I never expected to see my name in any blogs and to see it in yours and Grace's...it was an achievement that I should be proud of ^^ As far as I remember, only both of you thanked me publicly in blogs...Anyhow, I am feeling really excited because I really did not know what I helped you but I really appreciate what you did...I will try my best to help you out again when you need it ya~~

Well well, that is all for now..pretty tired after the ACP project..had tons of fun there...

*P.S~~~Siu Mei, Belle, Esther, Rachel Chia and Valerie...you girls indirectly helped me to be happier now ^^ As for Yen and Jia Min, I thank both of you for talking to me whenever I was feeling abit down...both of you always talk to me at the right time ^^ In addtion to my existing friends; Angeline, Shean, Boon Chin, Yee Lee, Xin Rou, Shirley, Jassic...I am sorry for whatever bad quality of work or mistakes that I have done...please forgive me...and tell me what I have done wrong..I really need it!!! Most important of all, Cecilia and Sim Ee...two wonderful best friends...I miss both of you alot and thanks for being there for me and guide me ^^ Other friends like Huey Yee, Siyan, Yvonne, Kai Jia and alot more...not forgetting ALL PSG members, I am glad to have befriended you all...you guys and girls rocks!!!

~Headache~

2008-11-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

Not feeling quite well now...just had a nap earlier...but now still feeling drowzy...hungry...tired...exhausted...guess I overexerted myself...sigh~~I am feeling so lost now...feeling the emptiness in my mind, deeppppp into myself...ARGHHH!!! I just cannot blog for the day...

Anyway, tomorrow is my ACP project day...hopefully everything will go on smoothly...still feeling abit worried though...sigh~~

*Thanks to my friends who cared bout me here...I am alright and fine here...nothing much to worry about ^^ Hehe~~

~My lovely friend, Angeline's Birthday~

2008-11-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

So yea, this is a little too late but I just so eager to blog about it...because she's my first friend in HMC (HELP Matriculation Centre) Foundation in Arts...She is no other than Angeline Lee Hwei Mei...By the way, her birthday celebration was last Tuesday, 28th October 2008~~Thanks for all the support you gave me ya...I truly appreciate it and I know you are such a great and wonderful friend!!! Here are the lovely pictures of her and the celebrations~~

The ever lovely girl~~

First Birthday Party at Mid Valley~~

Her wonderful circle of friends~~

Two cakes for her ^^

Her presents~~

Second Birthday Party at Prince Cafe, SS2~~

First group picture when every1 arrived~~

The excitement when she saw the card~~

Cake-cutting time~~

One of her lovely presents~~

A surprise bouquet of flowers for her~~

The happy faces before cutting the cake~~

The hungry faces after cutting the cake~~LOL!!!

Overall, it was a great day...I guess everyone had fun there and I am really grateful that she loves the parties...at least those involved for the day had made her day...Congrats to you all ya!!! Hehe...Angie, hopefully all your wishes will be fulfilled and you will have a wonderful birthday next year~~

*By the way, got my midterm results today...is kind of expected and yea, I am quite disappointed over it as I did not spend much effort to revise earlier...I revised for the exams just merely a day before each of the paper respectively...I got 22.8%/30% for my PSY111 (Biopsychology in particular) and 6%/10% for my MC100...sigh~~Wondering what have I been doing for the past 9 weeks...Nevermind, I gotta work harder and smarter from now on...there is still the FINALS for me to tackle...gonna start studying at least a week or 2 weeks before the exams~~

~Appreciate Your Life~

2008-11-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

Had a great day today...a great test for my poor stamina...however, I am so so so delighted today because I was able to play badminton for 2 hours without much rest...I ran around the hall during breaks...jumped over 5 chairs here and there...I really had tons of exciting moments today...and I finally able to put my stamina to test...ANNDDDDD I am very pleased with what I did~~By the way, 6 ppl went there today...Angeline, Yee Lee, Boon Chin, Shean, Kar Fei and me~~Thanks alot to you all for enlighting my day ^^

Well, life is short (as said in Jacqueline's blog)...but if we do appreciate it, life is actually full of colours and wonders...it is GREAT!!!! Haha~~Since I found my way to be happy, I am feeling whole lots of fun nowadays...for most of the stuffs I did ^^ Hopefully everyone can be happy just like how I am now...Jia Min, way to go!!!! It is great to hear from you about the happiness you have now~~

Unrequited love hurts huh?? I mean at times it does right?? But most of the time, I do not really think so that it hurts that much compared to a broken love~~Haha!!! It is still subjective and this statement is arguable...However, it means nothing much to me now as I still think that having best friend(s) at times is/are better...For now, I have Sim Ee with me...and also Ming Yoong...both of them are great...I can find them anytime...and they are so supportive and funny too~~I also have Cecilia now...Although she is from another country, but the support she had for me is fabulous!!! Hopefully we can get closer as best friends ya, Cecilia!!!!

~Transition of Life~

2008-11-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

I had lots of fun recently...ever since I returned from the camp, I feel alot more fresh and different now...I can smile happily without any doubts~~I guess attending the camp really gave me a fresh start to my new life eh~~

Thinking back a few weeks back when I officially started the Psychology degree studies...I was so eager to explore the world of PSYCHOLOGY but now I am starting to feel the pressure...but well, all the pressure I experienced have led me to a higher level of self-understanding...It is the 10th week of studies now and finals is approaching...I am excited by the fact that I am motivated and inspired by the amount of stress and pressure I am undergoing now...Undergraduate studies life is great after all~~

Firstly, I met whole lots of new friends...be it my seniors or my peers...it is my pleasure to have known them ^^ They all gave me a great time in these 10 weeks and I hope it will last alot more longer than I expect...hopefully~~I love you all, my friends!!! Joining Peer Support Group does help me alot too~~

Next, I met a girl who I fell in love with...a bittersweet experience for me but I do enjoy it...it did not turn out to be the way I wanted due to some personal reasons of mine, not hers...Had some wonderful time with her...short but extremely meaningful...and here we are now, staying as close friends without pushing for any further development...being able to remain close friends is an achievement to me already...I am more than satisfied with it...In short, I am content with it...

Thirdly, I have learnt alot of interesting facts and opinions from my lecturers and friends...most of them come from the lecturers ^^ In the short time of 10 weeks, I already discovered alot of unseen and unnoticed skills of mine and developing new ones at the same time...and gained tons of valuable experiences and knowledge!!! Hehe~~I am happy to admit that although I do feel stressed up at times, I AM ENJOYING EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF MY TIME IN THE PURSUIT OF BACHELOR OF PSYCHOLOGY DEGREE!!!

~PSG Search-In Camp~

2008-11-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

At last, I found the time to update about this camp...technically speaking, it is not really found the time because I was thinking about how to do my MC100 project and I got stucked...So, I decided to take a break and blog today instead of tomorrow...

Anyway, this camp really rocks!!! I would say this is the best camp ever for me as I have learnt something from it...I am feeling so happy and excited whenever I thought of it...the memories there are truly unforgetable...I really enjoyed it so much and probably the camp that changes my perception on lots of stuffs..."Youth in Transition" is the theme of the camp and I guess most of the participants (inclusive of committees) did had some transition in their life from this camp...don't ya all think so, fellow participants?? Oh well, I will let the pictures do the talking now..pretty lazy to make a lenghty post full of words that bores people off...

Before leaving for the camp~~

Eagerly waiting for the bus~~Look at our bored faces...

The best picture I have ever posed~~An achievement to me ok??

This is our Destination~~

My experience there~~

My beloved group members~~

YSL (Yeah Security Link) Rocks!!!!

A surprise farewell party for the advisor, Mr. Gerry

Beach activities time~~

Enjoying the waves~~

The committee who make this happen ^^

The Groups~~

Yeah Security Link~~Love ya all, groupmates!!!

The Artistry (A very creative group indeed~~)

Chillax, Just Psycho!! (A funny group name and members as well!!)

Nasi Impi~~ (The best warcry and funny group~~)

S-Factor~~ (Lynnette is really cute when doing the warcry)

Incomplete group photo~~Waiting for the complete 1~~

Esther snapped this masterpiece of me sleeping LOL~~

Oh well, overall there is lots of stuffs that I did in the camp...I will shorten it by listing them in number...imagine it yourself...too lazy to explain~~

I joined the hyper gang at times before, during and after camp~~The gang consists of Siu Mei, Valerie and Belle...Esther is in it sometimes...just like I am~~
I had alot of bananas for my meals...
I have met lots of new friends...managed to get closer to my seniors~~
I slept late everyday during the camp...first day at bout 3 a.m...second day bout 5 a.m...It is a 3 days 2 nights camp by the way~~
I wrote 45 comments in total for everyone except for Joel, because he went back early...Sorry Joel~~
I became the leader of my group...once again leader in a camp...at least better than been the HEADMASTER in my HMC Leadership Camp~~
I managed to share my personal stuffs with a group...my first ever time being able to do so..Thanks alot to my group members!!!!
I learnt to sing quite a few songs to the wall...HAHA~~
I enjoyed playing Cho Tai Di and Bluff in the middle of the night~~
I acted as Cinderella in a sketch with my group members...using my golden bedsheet as the clothes~~Haha...I acted lamely but received good and also weird comments from people...By the way, I used a pretty high pitch voice instead of my normal voice...I guess my group members hate it~~Sorry...
I feel totally relaxed throughout the camp...letting all my stress feelings out~~A sense of euphoria...
I managed to get insight about myself and some participants in the camp as well...
I feel grateful because my presence is felt there...for all the good reasons of course~~
I feel disappointed having not washing the dishes as promised...
I learnt to be more tolerate and patient to people~~
I learnt how to add fun and thrills to my life....
I have learnt the importance of TRUST in friendships and relationships~~
I have experienced the feeling of missing my loved ones - Sim Ee, Cecilia, Shean, Boon Chin, Grace and my other friends..not to forget, MY FAMILY~~
I tried my best to brush up my Mandarin skills by listening to them speaking Mandarin...
I endured a super cold air conditioned dormitory with a bunch of guys...*chilling down to the spine*
I have learnt tons of mistakes that need to be improved...thanks Xin Rou for highlighting my biggest mistake~~
I received about 30 wonderful comments from the participants...about 15 are really meaningful to me...allowing me to understand myself better~~Thanks alot!!!
I have learnt the spirit and enthusiasm of teamwork~~
I have rolled over a barrier of sand with a guy...with great speed~~Enjoyed that alot!!!
I enjoyed lots of nice snacks..thanks to Esther, Siu Mei, Belle and Valerie~~

Well, that is all for now...OMG!!! It's 3.30 a.m already...gotta sleep~~Till then...Please ask me if you want to know more about the camp...too tired to type it out already~~

~Baskin Robbins~

2008-10-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

As usual...31st of each month is the day of Ice-Cream for my family...Haha~~Today is a fantastic one because it had been a long long time since I ate it with my bro and parents...usually, it is only me and my parents...somehow, today my bro is able to make his trip back and we gladly enjoyed our ice-cream together at The Curve's Baskin Robbins...

I am very happy and excited every time I had a quart of Baskin Robbins Ice-Cream with my family...I just love Ice-Cream alot...and that is why Felicia gave me the name "Ice-Cream Boy" happily ^^ Oh by the way, sometimes we went to eat some Ice-Cream at New Zealand Natural on 30th of the months instead of Baskin Robbins...HAHA~~ICE-CREAM ALL THE WAY!!!!

Anyway, I feel kinda lazy to blog much about the Peer Support Group Search-In Camp for now..hopefully few hours later I would be able to find the mood to blog it out ^^

~Freshmen Luncheon + Power of 10 Cents + Global Peace Festival~

2008-10-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

Alright...Promised to blog about the events...only able to post up pictures of Freshman Luncheon and Power of 10 Cents due to time constraints...Will post up more about the Peer Support Group Search-In Camp tomorrow or later on...abit busy nowadays...

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BACHELOR OF PSYCHOLOGY FRESHMEN LUNCHEON

Nothing much to write about this...Basically, it is a lunch party to welcome the freshies...HEHE~~Felt so happy to be able to wear that "robe"...Harry Potter wannabe eh??? I enjoyed it alot as the talks from the BPsych Student Council president, seniors and the Dean of BPsych, Dr. Goh Chee Leong are great, inspiring and interesting ^^...Here are some of the pictures I have so far...Did not take much though...

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Power of 10 Cents Launching

Right after the Luncheon, it is the time for the launching for "The Power of 10 Cents" project taken up by Siyan, my beloved president for the RUSH project as well...Seriously, I need to thank her alot for including me in those 2 projects...felt so grateful and blessed~~Anyway, this project is spearheaded by Mr. Nicholas of Universal Peace Federation and we are one of the colleges helping out ^^ A very deep thank you for my beloved friends who attended the launching...Really glad to see you all there...

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Global Peace Festival

The festival was great and it took place at Stadium Putra, Bukit Jalil...It was a memorable one seeing this is my first ever time attending such event and this is also the FIRST time Malaysia hosted the event...a wonderful day to remember...I love it to bits!!!! No pictures though..the only one I have is this picture...

~Sorry~

2008-10-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

I am sorry for the problems with my chatterbox...not sure how to fix it but I will try my best...

As for the updates on my 3 events that happened over the past 2 weeks, I will blog about it as soon as possible...hopefully by tomorrow...at least a bit of it..snippets perhaps ^^

~My dear friend~

2008-10-23T01:02:00.000+08:00

Yong Jie oh Yong Jie...faster come meet me lol!!! Miss you alot!!! Everytime also say busy one..when are you free oh?? I have met Cecilia...so now it is your turn, pretty girl~~Haha...Too bored while studying MC100..so I just crap abit here...

*Yong Jie ar...if you got read this post, leave some comment here or the chatterbox la...always read my blog also never leave comment one...By the way, faster ask Feli to come back ar...I miss her even more now!!! Sms there so expensive leh...50 cents for 1 sms...can bankrupt lo!!!

~Frustration~

2008-10-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

I am pretty frustrated with the way some of my friends behaved and some of them who changed tremendously..

I do not know why they prefer it to be this way but all I can say now is I am not gonna care about those people who does not even appreciate or aware of the efforts I spent on helping them out...

I realized that I have been doing something against my will nowadays...I shall stop it and return to the TRUE self!!! I do not wanna help people who does not even want it at the first place...

Those who does not need or appreciate my help, do tell me...and you will never receive any help from me anymore...I do love to help people but to those people out there (you know who you are), I have enough!! My patience has its limit...I am sorry but that is the only thing I can do..

~RuMoUrS~

2008-10-21T17:11:00.000+08:00

Alright!!! I am back with yet another new post..THIS TIME IT IS ABOUT RUMOURS LOL!!! But before that...I just wanna say that I am suffering from deep fatigue...Having crammed myself for almost 8 hours for a single subject...studying from Chapter 1 right up to Chapter 7!!! OMG!!! This is the first ever time I study till so lateeeeee....and it is 7 chapters in 8 hours!!! Barely enough to trigger my brain to remember them...I felt so regretful for it...it is just so pathetic of me...spending too much time on assignments...causing this to happen...sigh~~

Haha...anyway, I am feeling very fine now...because I got to drive my dad's car to college today ^^ And best thing of all, I can go back anytime before dinner time...great!!! Basically, I went to class at 8 am today, and left at 9.30 am because alot people are leaving; so I join the crowd LOL!!! Then I went on to chat around with people to de-stress myself..HAHA~~So bad right...distracting other people..LOL!!! I went to disturb the ever cute Huey Yee, Adeline, and Jash...but they are fine with it somehow...and then I went on to struggle for the exam and I am more than satisfied with what I have done considering the amount of chapters that I could cover...

I drove to Yee Lee's house after that and Vidhya hop on and we went to Bangsar McD...had some fries there and had some chat with them...quite lenghty as well...but the topic mostly resolves around me...and Vidhya was completely bored with it because she was quite blur about it...Oh well, basically it was just RUMOURS, RUMOURS, and RUMOURS about me as usual...being rumoured by people since I was in Form 3 and the trend goes on...LOL!!! I do not really want to have must say or explaination on this topic because it is so frustrating...usually I do not really care much about these rumours but this time around, it is hard for me to ignore it...Somehow, it makes me feel more desperate LOL~~But nvm, I shall be able to control because I promise myself to learn how to control my emotions!!! HAHA!!!

1 paper is done...left 1 more on thurs...gotta cram again...but this time I am sure it is better than yesterday...Alright, time to start doing my reflective journal again...and then edit my PDA...gotta pen off here ^^

~A sigh of Relief~

2008-10-19T02:22:00.000+08:00

After enduring long amount of hours today...I FINALLY COMPLETED MY PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT ASSIGNMENT A.K.A PDA..HAHA~~So happy now...YAHOO!!!! Life is really great at the moment...enjoying every single bit of it...It's 2.35 am now...OMG!!! I need to attend the Global Peace Festival at Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil in like 7 hours time...HAHA~~ Wondering how to sleep now lol...so little time left...thanks to my lovely PDA...

Well well, this few days I have been chatting alot huh?? Haha~~I really love to chat ok?!?!? So, whoever wants to chat with me, feel free to find me...as said in my earlier posts, Chatting is a way for me to de-stress~~Hehe!!! No doubt about it yea!! I will never scold anyone who wants to chat with me...anyway, those who need help as well, find me too...I will try my very best to help you all out no matter how hard the situation it...

So, here is my sincere and utmost gratitude for those who really cared alot for me during my recent breakdown and turnover~~

1) Sim Ee (My all-time best friend although it's only 1 year ++ now ^^)
2) Cecilia (My best friend from Indonesia, first ever best friend from other country ^^)
3) Shean (A nice girl who always cared for me~~Glad to have met her ^^)
4) Jassic (A mischievious girl who cares alot for friends~~Sweet one ^^)
5) Boon Chin (A bubbly and funny girl who likes to "kepo" around but she's really nice ^^)
6) Xin Rou (A lovely girl who appears to be really stressed out but still cares bout friends ^^)
7) Angeline (A strong and powerful leader who shows concern for people indirectly ^^)
8) Zi Yen (A newly acquainted friend who has made my days ^^)
9) Jia Min (Another newly acquainted friend who has enlightened my life ^^)
10) Yee Lee (A very caring girl who can be very observant and understanding~~)
11) Siu Mei (A nice and fun-to-be-with girl who is very friendly and chatty ^^)
12) Mun Kuan (A friend from NS who is studying in HELP too~~Nice moody girl ^^)
13) Grace (A girl who gives me lots of sweet memories~~A wonderful friend...Thanks ^^)
14) Jun Min (A guy who shares the similar personality of me~~Like twins LOL!!! ^^)
15) Edward (A guy who is really helpful in group assignments~~Superb teammate ^^)
16) Jo Lynn (A good leader with very good communication skills~~Smart leader ^^)
17) Shireen (A very determined girl who gives me shocks in life~~Surprising teammate ^^)
18) Alden (A charismatic guy with full of creativy in his mind~~Creative teammate ^^)
19) Charissa (A soft-spoken girl who appears to be really nice~~Charismatic teammate ^^)
20) Christine (A pretty girl who smiles everytime I see her~~Cheerful teammate ^^)

*Notice 15 - 20?? The initials for the bolded words S,S,S,C,C,C ^^ *

There are lots more for me to thank though...but these are the ones I need to express my gratitude the most...I list them in a random position...except for the first 2 of my best friends, everyone are equal to me...However, that doesn't means the last is the worst though...I care for each and everyone of them...none will be left out...friends are my second priority after my family ^^

I can make a list of friends eh...which can dig out my memories with them LOL!!! Not a bad idea to recall back who our friends really are eh...well well, those listed above are all my HELP friends...other friends are not in the list as yet..next time I will make one for you all yea, fellow
Victorians!!!

*I would want to wish two of my friends a lovely journey of their life together...It is a wonder to see that happening...Congrats and good luck ^^...*

~Emo Season is Over~

2008-10-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...i'm back for a new post again!!! Haha~~being seeing lots of my emo posts around eh?? Sorry ya...was abit down recently...but it is OVER now...I have learnt to control my emotions now...somemore Mr. Franklin (My LLS101 Lecturer) has awaken me from my own realm of the world...Now I am back to the reality!!!!

There is no need to emo anymore...I have found out a good way to prevent it now...much thanks to the second session of my group counselling today...I had a great day today...Firstly, it starts with an inspiring lecture from Mr. Franklin which had helped me to pinpoint some unseen or unknown side of me...glad to have attended this wonderful lesson...I bet I will find him for some chats or so even after I graduate in the future...

After that, I went for this group counselling...right after my short group discussion with my PSY111 group members...Sincerely, I need to thank my PSY111 and LLS101 group members because you all are so cooperative and great!!! I appreciate the enthuasiasm we share though it is not much but it is still great!!! Not to forget my group members for other subjects...the people that I have known for a year or so...

Well, back to emo part...Throughout this week, I had a few good chats with my friends which include Cecilia, Sim Ee (My 2 best friends ^^), Mun Kuan (Thanks alot for your concern!!), Siu Mei (The ever bubbly and funny girl) and lastly, Yen (A lovely girl who just added me in MSN 2 days ago)...After chatting with them, I can finally feel what it is to be loved by friends....Love does not only shown towards our partner...it must be expressed to everyone in the world!! And this is one of my new goals in my life now~~WHEEEE!!!!

I still remembered clearly a life-touching chat with Sim Ee which took place two days ago...it is one of the longest chats we have since months ago...we shared pretty much about our life experiences on both the negative and positive side of it...Basically, we both had some life-changing experiences and events...so we strongly feel the need to empathize one another and we managed to do it (Some good practices to become a counsellor eh??) Haha~~We chatted about 3 hours if I am not mistaken....LOL!!! I actually abandoned my PSY111 assignment that time to chat with her...because I really enjoy chatting with her + the time she is willing to spend with me...so nice and sweet of her~~

Generally, people perceive that guys are supposed to be strong, macho and so on...so they should not CRY..but believe it or not, I actually CRIED while telling her about my life-changing experience...OMG!!! Tears kept flowing from my eyes until my face became sticky and I need to wash my face later on..HAHA!!! I guess I did not CRY for nothing though because she said "if I were in your situation, I would get mad and scold her on the spot!!"...WOW!!! So scary...but being the "real" me, I am a soft and weak guy...I dislike scolding people and hardly gets angry...It is the nature of me to do so...Thus, I just tolerated and answered calmly...hiding my true feelings within myself...but no worries now, I know what to do now and I am going to do it!!!

After the whole CRYING experience, I had realized how stupid am I to be CRYING unnecessarily...Life is about changes...we should value the changes not CRY over it...Finally, I get to know myself more and more now...I start to understand the importance to have a strong internal locus of control...I will try my best to control my emotions from now on...

I love the life I am having now despite all the troubles that happened to me now and before...Now that I have found my new goal...I will appreciate my life even more now...HEHE~~Will try my best to prevent emo periods...Loving people is not an issue for me now because I will love everyone just as how they are...I will not be seeking for a relationship for time being because I believe the time has not come yet...I am tired of it...Being trying to find one all these years, wasted quite alot of time on it...So, now I am going to do whatever that will make me happy...Being in love is not important anymore...YAHOO!!!!

~My Beloved Friend (Memories Now)~

2008-10-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

Stressful life eh?? Nah...I would say everyone is having the same problem I am going through now...pretty exhausted already...almost dozed off earlier but I stopped myself from it...ARGHH!!!

Haha..well well, I want FREEDOM!!! I do not want assignments LOL!!! I want good friends!! I want to be a good friend to others!!! I want happiness!! I want to spread happiness as well!!

Sigh~~Most important of all...I want to love!!! I want to be loved!!! I want to care!!! I want to be cared of!!!

My mind is very blank now...Alot of stuffs are playing in my mind...Got to meet some new friends recently, or should I say "friends" that I have not talked to before...Glad to have talked to them finally...well, introverts hardly socialize much...although it is said that my social interest is crazily high...no idea why though...hmmm~~

Today, I was very surprised by a weird question but I am not saying it out here...no idea why that question came but it really makes me feel so guilty...Since the day we met, we made a promise and happily, I did it for every class...it was like a dream came true for me that time to enjoy such memorable moments...Life sounds so great and promising at that time...somehow, it does not last as long as I would have expected...It was undeniably short...not even half of what I have expected...Despite that, I never regret fulfilling the promises we had...I really loved to do it...Although it sounds stupid to alot of people around, but I would not mind doing it for my entire life if I have to...because I have never ever do such things before...I really thought that I am stupid for promising that...but I never expected it would be so fun and challenging...Sometimes it is really hard to cope with the pressure, but I really enjoy doing it...However, I do not think this promise will last long because somehow, I feel that the worse is yet to come...SIGH~~

Since the time we drifted away from one another, there is the time where someone came into your life...Well, it is not that we had some arguments or anything...it just happened so quickly and it gave me a shock at first...Nevertheless, I became used to it and there it goes till now...it is really fine with me because after all, we did not forget each other and I will never forget you too...I believe you will not too...Although it is just a short period of time, but the changes I faced is enormous...I have really became happier now, at least a bit...I have done alot unexpectable stuffs that even I do not aware of them...It had been a long time since I experienced changes in my life...I always wondered why..till now I still do not know why...Life is just so complicated ain't it?? Sigh~~

Well well, a weird question alone can dig out my short term memories...but I am very sure all these stuffs will be transferred to my long term memory...because it had been years since I last enjoyed such happy moments...I think it is 3 years ++...So, here I am now..pondering when can I ever experience this kind of feeling anymore...maybe not anymore...but anyhow, I need to say "THANKS ALOT" for all the time you spent with me though it is not much...but I appreciate every single second that you allocated for me despite your super hectic schedule...It was really the greatest thing ever I have always wanted from a friend...TIME is precious!! So, whoever that really spends time with me...YOU would get a great token of appreciation from me...

My TIME is precious too..but for friends, every single second counts...I mean it counts as in I do not mind spending TIME with them as long as they really appreciate it...

*Thanks alot for being there for me though it is such a short moment..I truly appreciate it..I really hope this will last for a very very long time if it is not forever...Unfortunately, it did not last that long...though only YOU could make me talk with you in a way that I can never do it to others!!! Maybe there is someone in the future but till now, only YOU managed to do that...that is a miracle to me...A MAGIC!!! Thanks again and good luck with whatever you do...I will be always here supporting you..24/7 available for you to find me if you really need to...I LOVE YOU, MY DEAR FRIEND~~

~A tiring day~

2008-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

Today is a tiring day...didn't sleep well yesterday, was worrying about some stuffs which I do not really need to...HAHA~~Oh well, it is just me...always full of thoughts...So, I was abit sleepy in the classes...and due to some lecture, I actually dozed off a few times but luckily I managed to keep myself awake...Thanks to Jia Min's cute cute drawings...haha~~I was really lucky to be sitting near her today because if it is not because of those drawings, I might end up sleeping like a log there...However, the next lecture was waaaaayyyy better...at least I could concentrate better though I am mentally exhausted...

After that, I went to help out with the Halloween Event Games Booth...However, there is no booth that time though and I end up drawing and cutting stuffs with Boon Chin...Hehe~~Though I did not draw much but it was fun to me...maybe not for her...Well, what to do...only 2 people came out of 5 volunteers for the job..sigh~~We were happy because Evie and Ian were happy and grateful that we helped them...

The clock is ticking and ticking...and it is 2.10 pm if I am not mistaken...OMG!!! I was supposed to be playing badminton with Yee Lee, Shean, Vincent, Boon Chin, Burn, Ser Li and Julian...but because me, Yee Lee, Shean and Boon Chin are late..only Burn, Ser Li and Julian reached there first...Vincent came and pick 3 of us and OFF WE GO~~Once reached there, everyone was so eager to play but we only got 6 racquets...So, 2 people just look around at first...To cut the long story short, we all played till 4 pm...and everyone was quite tired and exhausted except for Yee Lee, the PRO badminton player...

Then, I went to Shean's house with Boon Chin, Shean and Yee Lee in Vincent's car...once there, we quickly discuss about the HAPI proposal that is to be submitted to Grace tomorrow while Vincent left us and drove home...Immediately, me and Boon Chin get settled down with the outline of the workshop...Not long after that, Jassic reached home...and she was shocked to see me...HAHA~~Well well, I am so scary and horrible...what to do~~Before Jassic came home, we all ordered McD and eat it on the spot...

It was a great day to me as I have not played badminton for quite some time...hehe~~Well well, I suppose I can see a new couple on the move now...Must get prepared to wish and congratulate them already!!! Alright..time to do PSY110 Reflective Journal...that is all for now...Cheers~~

~Halloween Party~

2008-10-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...the HALLOWEEN MONTH is here...in conjunction with it, PSG (Peer Support Group) of BPsych has prepared loads on EVENTS throughout the month!!! Here are the details:

I am helping out with Tricks or Treats...so you can look out for me too besides the booth and other people in charge...The details are here:

A very common phrase you will hear when it comes to Halloween.So common, sometimes saying it brings you straight to the Halloween mood. =D

Which is why PSG is proud to bring to you this tradition right here in HELP!Yes.You heard that right.You actually get to TRICK or TREAT your unsuspecting victim with our help!If you're in one of your humourous, prank-time mode, TRICK your friends or lecturer (yes, lecturer!) with:

1. Horrible Singing (RM6) - How would you like a bunch of us singing in bad pitches, off tones of Barney's song to your friend in the lecture?

2. Empty Box stuffed with Newspaper (RM2) - Imagine giving them a nice box, and see them open it up and find only newspapers. Cool, no?

3. Toilet Roll (RM3) - Want to give something practical to your friend? Tired of them always asking for tissue? Give them a whole roll!

4. Car Billboard (RM6) - Think your friend's car need a lil jazzing up? (We'll need their number plate and rough parking area btw) With some messages from you so the whole world knows that you've been the funniest friend?

5. Satay Sticks (RM3) - It's a different looking flower, just without the flower, no? And they can be quite practical.

Alternatively,If you're feeling like the nice angel you probably are, why not send them a TREAT?

1. A stalk of flower (RM8) - What says caring and brighten one's day then with a suprise stalk of fresh flower?

2. Nice singing (RM5) - Should you decided that your friend/lecturer and those around them deserve kindness to your ears, send them a choir group singing a sweet melody

3. Chocolates (RM4) - With all the assignments and ongoing revision, a supply of dopamine will definitely help ease the burden

4. Sweets (RM2) - For those with sweet tooth, and need something in their mouth to last long lectures, this is an awesome choice.

If you were thinking, hrm...one Trick/Treat is not enough, and wondering if there could be more, we're telling you, YOU CAN.Take a look at our packages!

1. Flower + Nice Singing (RM12)

2. Flower + Chocolates (RM 11)

3. Empty Box + Toilet Roll (RM4)

4. Horrible Singing + Satay Sticks (RM8)

5. Horrible Singing + Toilet Roll (RM8)

6. Billboard + Toilet Roll (RM8)

7. Chocolates + Horrible Singing (RM9)

Sure you can afford an average of RM6 for a double Trick/ Treat/ Mix of both for a dear friend or lecturer, no? Hee!And if you do the math, they are technically cheaper than the singular purchases!

Don't worry. All Trick-or-Treat come with a little card where you can write messages to the recipients. Details you should take note of:

Venue: KPD Block E Level 4

Booth Opens: 12 pm to 3pm

Manual Order Dates: 17 Oct, 20 Oct, 21 Oct (Order officially closes 24 Oct - Online & Manual)

Payment Dates: 17 Oct, 24 Oct

Delivery Dates: 21 Oct, 22 Oct, 23 Oct - for orders before the 20th28 Oct, 29 Oct, 30 Oct - for orders after the 20th

Delivery Time: 11am - 4pm

*These delivery dates means that you will have to choose a venue and a time of your recipient on this particular date. Eg: Friend A's class will be in SR2.10 at 11.30am on 22Oct.NOT Friend A's class will be in SR2.10 at 5pm on 25Oct = No delivery for this!

Order Method:

Method 1 (Manual Ordering) Head to our booth on Level 4 on the Order Dates and put your order with the person in charge.

Method 2 (Online Ordering) -Decide on which Trick/Treat/Package you would like and note the code according to the above. Eg: Trick 1 would be "Horrible Singing".- Send your details (Trick/Treat/Package Code, Your name and handphone number, Receiver's name, Date & Time of Delivery - choose from dates above, Venue of delivery and your message)to psgdedication@gmail.com or psgathelp@gmail.com- Pay on the specific date at the booths = refer above

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Come and support us...let's test your friends' reaction!!!

~A New start of LIFE~

2008-10-13T18:30:00.000+08:00

What is LIFE eh!??!? To me, it stands for "Love Is For Everyone"...well well, after some deep thoughts and troublesome periods...I finally understand how important is it to love everyone around us...All this while, I have not appreciated all my friends who always support and encourage me anytime and anywhere...There is nothing better you need to expect from them because they will give you the best!!! Obviously family members are the most crucial part of our LIFE but then...I really need friends to be around me so I will not feel lonely all the time...

Alright, I have evaluated the meaning of LIFE in my perspective...now I am going to talk about my BIGGEST CHALLENGE to date...Since breaking up with my first and only girlfriend last time, I felt so traumatized that I cried for two or three days...Sigh~~But then again, it was HER who actually inspired the change of myself...I have became a person who is alot more caring than anyone would have expected, very sensitive, humble (or should I say low self-esteem and low self-confidence), an introvert...though it was not the best of change for me...but I am very grateful that I did change to a better person after all...

For your information, before I got into the relationship...I am an aggressive person...always seek for fights and arguments around...shouting and screaming at everyone like no one's business...I do not really remember much of it...but ask my primary schoolmates who are now studying in colleges everywhere and there are 4-5 people studying in HELP too...they know it better than I do...Haha~~I can never imagine what would I have been if it is not because of that relationship...

MAIN POINT FOR THE DAY is................TADAAAA!!! I am not going to online in MSN anymore except for some important issues to talk to people around such as assignments but will be less on personal issues now...I realized that I have being too caring and too sensitive...making myself sounds like a "kepo" person at times...well, it is not to say very bad but I found out that it is bad and does not bring any good to me or my friends...Over the years, I had tried my best to help my friends out with whatever I could as long as they share their problems with me...Nice to say, I did managed to help out quite a number of them...but nowadays, life is getting tougher...everyone is busy and always seek for their significant ones or someone who they can really trust to...AND YES, I am losing more and more friends to talk with now...mainly because I was too sensitive and kept on asking questions to show my concern to them...After so long, I finally found out that I have always gone over the limit and my concern to them turned into the moment of "kepo-ness"...

Now I know why some people do not want to share their problems with me...FINALLY!!! Therefore, I am not going to complain about this anymore...I have realized my mistake...my LIFELONG mistake!!! From now on, I will NOT ONLINE MUCH ON MSN and will stop asking people to share their problems with me...I do not want to go over the boundaries anymore...I do not want people to feel hurt or sad because of what I did...Thus, I have decided to only ONLINE in MSN when I really need to or whenever I receive a request to online from my friends...

*Sorry for all the interruption and disturbance that I have done all this while...Now that I am not around when you guys online, there will be peaceful life to you all...no worries and good luck ya, mates!!!*

**About the Power of 10 Cents Launching and BPsych Freshmen Luncheon, I have yet to find the mood to blog about it and I only got a few pictures with me...So, stay tuned if any of you want to know about it v^^v **

***I dedicate this part to the person I do love alot...haha~~If you ever read this (though I doubt it), just cheer up ya...be happy always...I just wanted to say that you are great...a person who actually makes me fall head over heels for you...there is no doubt how good you were and how close we got together in such a short time...but due to your packed schedule, we may not be as close as before...Nvm, I am still fine here..no worries~~However, since you are too busy...there is no time for me to tell you what I really wanted to...I could not find any good time to tell you but whatever it is...Stay happy ya...There are alot of options available for you...hopefully you did not make the wrong choice ya~~Nevertheless, if you do have a good bf in the future (or maybe you already had one)...I will congratulate you and give all my blessings for you!!! I enjoyed alot with you whenever we were together (as a friend of coz) despite the short period of time we met...***

~I LOVE YOU~

2008-10-12T02:57:00.000+08:00

I Love You I Love You I Love You
I Love You I Love You I Love You
I Love You I Love You I Love You
I Love You I Love You I Love You
I Love You I Love You I Love You
I Love You I Love You I Love You

Haha...I just love myself LOL...too bored... ;p
Gotta get going with my MC100 Assignment...it's 3.04 am by the way...and all my friends are pretty much sleeping nicely...nightcrawler is in action again ^^

~Depression~

2008-10-12T02:50:00.000+08:00

Haha..I am not suffering from depression but I found this clip quite interesting though... ^^

http://video.about.com/depression/Depression.htm

Stucked with MC100 Individual Assignment at the moment...decided to crap something in the blog~~

~My Love Will Get You Home~

2008-10-10T18:24:00.000+08:00

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home. If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home. If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home. When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

Anyway, someone told me that she wants to dedicate this song to the love of her life...well, I guess it's pretty obvious that who she will dedicate too...hopefully he will understand...HAHA~~

Sigh...life is so sickening at times...Nevertheless, I need to thank my friends who enlightened my life again...without them, I would not even care about "empathy and understanding"...but well, nowadays I suffer nervous breakdowns at times...due to some undisclosed reasons~~

~10 Steps to avoid Emo-ing~

2008-10-09T02:42:00.000+08:00

I would like to dedicate this short post to people who are emo because of assignments...

1) Do not think too much....
2) Just write/type down whatever you had in the mind...
3) Have a cup of coffee or tea...
4) Give yourself a break...have a nap perhaps...
5) Listen to some soothing music...
6) Find a friend to talk to...
7) Blog it out...express it there (Just like most people did, including myself at times)
8) Lash out at someone who is not easily agitated/perturbed...someone like me ^^
9) Have a shower (short or long) to give yourself some freshness in cognitive skills...
10) Close your eyes and start imagining the happy times of your life (eg. with your bf/gf, family, friends or events and so forth)

Well, those are my own suggested list...no research has been done yet...but some out it do work wonder...try it out!!! And tell me which one works best or if all fail on you, do tell me why...feedbacks are fully welcomed~~I know the steps are common and pretty laid back but I guess a vast majority of the readers of this post out there have never actually done much of those steps right???

*Shean and Grace, don't worry so much...both of you are hardworking individuals...I will try my best to encourage and motivate you two...I am sure both of you will bring out the best of yourselves without doubt...I have faith on both of you... ^^

~Procrastination~

2008-10-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

Well well, it has been two days that I actually procrastinated in doing the speech writing...and today, I must finish it BY ALL MEANS!!! I'm so gonna complete it or else I will skip tomorrow's class~~Haha!!! I guess procrastinating is one of Peaceful Dove's weaknesses after all... ^^

Not really in the very good mood today...my friend, Boon Chin fell ill...so she could not attend any classes...hopefully she is fine and get well soon ^^ Then, I had some disastrous thoughts in my mind the whole day but managed to settle it pretty well enough...However, headaches are getting more and more frequent nowadays but I shall not be afraid...Because a little bit of music or chatting can cure it easily...Hehe~~

Hmm...counting on assignments and stuffs...I have like 3 more assignments that are due in the next 2 weeks...oh dear~~Life gonna be so sucky now and it's gonna be a hard pill to swallow...There is nothing to be fear though as currently I am still coping well with the stress...HAHA~~Emo is what people call me at times...but in fact, no one knows whether I am emo or not...my facial expression is deceiving...and I shall advise everyone to ask me personally...stop judging me from my facial expression..

~Opposites attract or Similarities attract??~

2008-10-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

“Opposites attract” is the common response when you see a contrasting couple — a tall woman and a short man, or a party person with a quiet introvert. Yet we all know couples who have the similar personalities — they like the same restaurants or are both neat freaks. So are people attracted to those unlike themselves to complement their personalities, or do people seek out a partner just like themselves because it’s positively reinforcing?

It turns out, neither hypothesis is true. A study of 36 couples found that there was no significant inter-personality similarity or differences. However, a two interesting findings emerged:
1) People had partners who were similarly self-satisfied with themselves
2) People’s perceptions of their partners were biased towards their ideal self

In other words, someone who was low self-esteem has a higher likelihood of having a partner with low self-esteem, while someone who is self-liking will look for a partner who also likes who they are. To elaborate on the second finding, there was no correlation between each individual partner’s personalities, but there was a correlation between a person’s ideal self-concept, and the perception they had of their partner. So if you aspire to be organized, you may believe that your partner is more organized than he or she really is.

Well, this is pretty true though...and it really depends...I had asked a few of my friends before, do not really remember how many people I have asked but the results are:

1) Yea, similar personalities make easier communication...
2) I want a similar kind of person to me so there will be less conflict...
3) Same kind, same hobby, same everything...I can enjoy alot spending time with him/her...

For the Opposites ones:

1) Oh yea!!! Different people make me want to explore them more...
2) Great, different personality person can understands me better...
3) I do not want a twin of me!! What for I want the same "me" to live with for the rest of my life???

In conclusion, do not waste your time...if you really love the person, whether she is opposite or not...just build up your courage and confidence...and go for it...if not, you might even regret when you lose the chance...So, appreciate the chance while you have it...success or failure, you can never decide until U TRY!!!

~Happiness~

2008-10-06T19:46:00.000+08:00

Well, today is a good day...feeling fresh again after the holidays...I am starting to enjoy my life now lol...Although got lots of assignments, but it really motivates me in lots of ways...Haha~~Glad to have enrolled for this course, Bachelor of Psychology...It gave me a whole lot of new and great experience to me...I am all geared up and prepared for it now...MORE ASSIGNMENTS, MORE FUN ...working with stress proved to be a great motivation to me after all..Hehe~~

I had a wonderful time earlier...walking in the rain, sharing the umbrella although I insist on not sharing it...HAHA~~Being soaking wet when I reached the library...It had been a long time since I last experience that..LOL~~Anyway, I borrowed some books for the assignments and left for a tea time with my dear boss, Grace...had a great one though I barely talked...owe her alot...need to repay the faith she had on me...

Assignments piling up eh...nevermind...I shall finish it ASAP...HAHA~~So well, I must keep myself motivated too...hehe~~Alright...time to go do the assignments...cheers ^^

~Biggest Impact on My Life~

2008-10-06T18:46:00.000+08:00

Basically, I want to dedicate this post for my very first girlfriend and the one who made the most impact in my life...The girl with the name, Fiona Wong Sit Yuen...She was the one I always quarrelled with when we were studying in Standard 6...it was long long time ago but it is still fresh in my mind...I truly have alot to thank her because without her, you will not see who I am now...What I am now is the results of my relationship with her, although it lasted just 3 months...
You might not have remember that relationship you had with me...but I do treasure it...because there is no doubt how much we changed for each other...From an aggressive guy, you tamed me and I have became more of a shy and timid guy...from a loud-speaking voice, I spoke softly to you...from a sad and disillusioned life, you brought cheers to me...you made me smile alot...you made me realize what love is really like...and I am sorry for not showing it on you for I am so naive and weak that time...

And here we are, being so different from what we were before...Haha~~You have embarked into a better life with your friends...and even has a good boyfriend now...but I am still single and still waiting for the love of my life who has not appeared yet...or maybe she did, just that I do not know...There is no doubt how much you changed my life...I never expected to be this way, being a guy who now seek for altruism in life...helping people around with all I could...spending lots of time listening to people grumbling or complaining...trying to portray a happy smile whenever I am with my friends...All thanks to you, I have became so different individual now..I admit I do became better now...So do you...hopefully you will have more wonderful time ya...miss ya lots~~

*She's my one and only girlfriend..since then, I have NOT had one at all~~*

~Thank You, my dear boss and my great friends~

2008-10-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

Well, just read my dear boss, Grace's blog...glad to see that she is doing fine despite all the stressful link of events that she overcame...I know it is not as stressful as what others would have thought because I know she is coping really well with the stress...She is a person who I highly respect and appreciate~~There is no doubt about how good a friend like her could be...she is just fabulous and fantastic...

About my stressful life, there is actually no worries though...I am coping well with my stress despite all those stressful words and posts in my blog, MSN, Facebook or Friendster...I just wanna express it out in words...but in reality, I am pretty fine though...I can still smile happily and giggle around with my friends, lecturers or whoever I talk to...Life without stress is not a LIFE...HAHA~~So, I will definitely cheer up and fight off the stress without question!!! I cannot disappoint all my friends who actually cared for me; Shean, Sim Ee, Angie, Boon Chin, Yee Lee, Xin Rou, Ming Yoong, Andy, Luqmal, Vidhya, Rubaashini, Steven and alot more...too long to be listed out...Deep in my heart, I know alot of people do care about me..just that they didn't show it in an obvious way... Thanks to you all too ya!!!

As for my group members for PSY111 and LLS101, so far I found you guys are quite cooperative and sounds really promising to me...I think we all can go far better than just an assignment group...hopefully we can remain pals for the rest of our life ^^ Edward, Shireen, Charissa, Christine, Jo Lynn, Chun Chiat, Alden and Julian...I am looking forward to cooperating with you guys~~Cheers ya...

For the self-selected (or whatever you all call it) groups, some of you might have worked with me before so please tolerate with me ya...I am very sorry for the past...I promise I will definitely strive for the better now...do correct me if I am wrong; Angeline, Shean, Xin Rou, Yee Lee and Boon Chin...only Xin Rou and Shean never worked with me before here while Shirley, Jassic, Asharaf and Elisha are totally new to me too although I knew most of them beforehand...

WELL, HOPEFULLY I WILL HAVE A GOOD TIME WITH YOU ALL, BOTH IN HELP AND OUTSIDE HELP~~

~Simplicity Rulez~

2008-10-05T15:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i saw this quote somewhere but apparently cannot remember where is it...

"Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication." by Leonardo Da Vinci

Well well, I do agree at that though because I hate complex and complicated stuffs...not that I cannot deal with it but sometimes it is better to have things simple you know...I am supposed to be a simple person but somehow my friends deemed me as a guy full of complexity..they see me as a very complicated guy...Sigh~~Those were the contradictory comments that I would not have otherwise expected...

Nevermind...no matter what they see me as one, I shall be living my life with one ultimate goal~~To become a well-known counsellor who can earn a good pay to support both my parents whom showered me with lots of love and care and MONEY...Of course I would hope that I can find a person who can give me all the support that I want and bring impact to my life (But well, this is not a realistic target as yet...maybe in years to come...most probably after my degree studies~~) I have set my sights on her and I shall wait on...or maybe just stay single LOL~~

Oh by the way, I taking a day off my assignments...gotta start my speech writing tomorrow..today I am gonna watch anime; "One Piece" which Boon Chin kindly lent it to me...thanks ya~~

~The Love of My Life or Just Friends?~

2008-10-04T03:13:00.000+08:00

Well, besides assignments...there is still something that is bothering me for quite some time now though...it is the 5th week of degree studies now...and lots of things actually playing in my mind~~Friends, studies, assignments, family and bla bla bla...too much to be listed here...

However, my main concern is obviously the studies though...which includes assignments and so on...Sigh~~What worries me now is my uncontrollable feelings/emotions...I can feel happy now and then sad within minutes...it is really bad and I am trying my very best to control it by all means...For the sake of myself and everyone who cares for me, I must do it and I know I can do it!!! Just need to build up some courage to do it~~I MUST DO IT!!!!

Oh well, hopefully I will not have my mind/brain overhauled and exhausted though...Actually, I am quite confused and undecided now...there is this person who really makes me feel so happy to talk/chat with...I have lots of friends around but she can actually makes me feel so comfortable to talk with...Usually, I feel really nervous to talk to people no matter who that person is...but this time around, I feel the other way round...Not really sure why but it does make me feel so relieved and relaxed though...

It is a joy and blessing for me to have met her...She is really special to me as I can feel the care and concern from her although it is not obvious at times...It was really a wonder to me because we just knew each other about a month only till now..The closeness we have with one another is really what I really never expected at all...She might have lots of friends and even closer to some people around but nevertheless, I will never complain because the company she gave me is really great...I truly appreciate it...I guess I might have even fell for her but well, we barely knew each other much...just ONE month only...Sigh~~Anyway, I think she likes someone else though...and she has a secret admirer going after her already...HAHA~~Well, if I do have the chance...then I do not mind giving it a try though...Because she is a girl that you can barely describe with words...you must actually get to know her and feel it yourself...it is really not easy to describe her ^^

*Seems like we are just friends after all...although I truly have deep feelings for her...but seeing that her secret admirer is pretty much in love with her...well, gambateh to him then~~Wondering do I stand a chance...Because I do not want to give up as yet~~*

**No matter what happen in the future, I will always be there for you...for I will always love you~~You enlightened my life...you brought lots of joy to me...you make me feel alot happier now...Even as a friend, I will still be there for you...there is NO way I can forget you~~**

~Emo Season + Assignments~

2008-10-04T02:55:00.000+08:00

I guess it is normal for people to emo nowadays...especially Bpsych students in HELP...every single week it is ASSIGNMENTS, ASSIGNMENTS and ASSIGNMENTS...So, there are really no reasons for anyone to deny the fact that sometimes they emo because of these ASSIGNMENTS...but obviously not most of the time though...

Well, let's see...there are 4 assignments that are due next week...

1. ACP Proposal - 6 Oct (DONE)
2. PSY110 Journal - 7 Oct (DONE)
3. Career Goal - 10 Oct (DONE)
4. Speech Writing - 10 Oct (In Progress~)

OMG!!! That is alot to me already...sigh~~And this is only for next week...let's see for the whole month...including those 4 above...

5. PSY105 Field Study (Experiment) - 20 Oct (Starting next Fri)
6. MC100 Individual Assignment - 24 Oct
7. PDP Assignment - 24 Oct
8. PSY111 Group Essay - 24 Oct (Meeting on 8 Oct, Wednesday~~Hopefully)
9. Career Fact Sheet - between the week of 27 Oct - 31 Oct (Details DONE)

This is way crazier than I would have thought...It is like 8 Assignments in A MONTH!!! Lots of stuffs to do man...I still need to go for another Vienna Test...then group counseling on Fridays for 3 consecutive weeks...OMG!!! I am gonna be super busy...need to plan my schedule nicely..if not, I would be really dead in completing the assignments...October is the month of ASSIGNMENTS and there is even MIDTERM Exam...where the PSY111 is on 21 Oct...sigh~~

~Yum Cha Session~

2008-10-02T19:41:00.000+08:00

Erm...today I had a great time meeting my old classmates in VI; Kim Bee, Ming Yoong, Weng Kit and Jing Yi...such a long time since I last met them...everyone has changed...including myself...but well, we had fun lol...

Well, we all met at Steven's Corner in Pandan Indah...this is the first ever time I drove to an outing although it is just a "yum cha" session...So yea, I drove there with my bro's Kelisa...After 40 minutes drive, I finally reach there...that is also because no traffic jam as most people balik kampung already...HAHA~~Once everyone is there, we ordered 1 Roti Tisu and there we all share it LOL~~

It was just an ordinary outing though..just that we all hardly meet each other, so it is meaningful to all of us...after the whole session, I fetched Jing Yi back to his house which is just nearby the Steven's Corner...and off I go on another 40 minutes drive...

Lastly, I am back here with my feet feeling numb because it is a manual car...well, it was a great day to me...I have already enjoyed enough for the past 2 days...

*Tomorrow onwards is time to start doing my assignments...*

MC100 - Group project Task 2 (DONE)
LLS101 - Career Goal and Speech Writing

Sigh...life is full of assignments now...Assignments, assignments, assignments...don't even have the time for Love...

~A day to Remember~

2008-10-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

Well, I was supposed to blog about this yesterday but I was too tired that time...HAHA~~So here goes...It was the last day of college studies before I start the short 5 days Raya break...As usual, I came early for class to get a place for my beloved boss...hehe~~However, I saw Xin Rou having a nice time eating Nasi Lemak outside the class...Therefore, I went there and talked to her and few moments later, Angeline arrived and join in...Shortly after that, all 3 of us went into the class...

It was a surprise for my beloved boss anyway...she was so surprised that she came in before me...because everytime I am always there before her...haha~~But well, she was there first because I was chatting with Xin Rou and Angeline...Anyhow, everyone was concentrating hard in the class as it was the only class for the day...Class was interesting but tough as usual...sigh~~

Alright...straight after the class is over, I had a long meeting with my LLS101 group members...it was really a crazy hot meeting place...we all perspired like no one's business...OMG!!!! And everyone was starving that time though...sigh~~Anyway, after 1 1/2 hours; we all finally got our proposal settled down and off we go to our next destination respectively...Immediately I called Burn to ask about the Power of 10 Cents tins because I was supposed to go around the office blocks to collect the donations from kind and willing people at 1 pm...but due to the lengthy meeting, I could not make it and even skipped my lunch...

So yea...no lunch, starving and tired...I called my dear boss, Grace...and I went on to ask her where everyone who are supposed to go for a karaoke session...After meeting them, we all went back to Main Block as I need to grab the Power of 10 Cents tin from one of the lockers...while waiting for 3 more people coming from the hostel..I am very sorry though as everyone waited for me...Luckily they were so nice and did not even blame me for anything... ^^

Haha...so after everyone gathered, we all walked to place near 7-11 where we can get taxi to go to Mid Valley...Apparently, the plan was changed from The Curve to Mid Valley and I just knew that on the spot...There are 9 people all together; Valerie, Hillary, Oga, Jing Guo, Cady, Jun Min, Chia Wei, Grace and myself...It did not take us long though to get the taxis which was a pretty good day for us...Once we reached, we all went to search for the karaoke place but end up doing something else because we could not find any there although Oga said it used to have one there...

Well, being so jobless...we all went lepak around before deciding on watching a movie...there was some conflicts on choosing which movie to watch LOL~~In the end, we ended up walking around again..HAHA~~And there we go...descending one floor by one floor...................................Afterwards, some of them decided to watch the movie "Money No Enough 2"...OMG!!! The show is like starting at 4pm and we all rushed back to the cinema to get the tickets...While running up the stairs, I looked at my phone and saw the time was 3.58pm LOL!!! After buying the tickets and stuffs...we entered and luckily, it just started...Overall, the movie is really touching and sad while instilling some humorous parts at some scenes...I personally felt the starting was abit LAME but as the show goes on..it really gave me lots of laughter and at the same time, TEARS!!! There was no doubt about how good the movie was...Out of the seven people who watched it, six people actually cried and that include me as well...It had been some time since I last cried for a movie though...the last one was the CJ7 where I cried even worse than I did yesterday...

After the movie, I went to McD with Chia Wei, Jun Min and Oga for some yum cha session while waiting for Grace, Jing Guo and Cady...Had some good chatting session with them and once Grace is done, Chia Wei bid farewell as well...Leaving me and Jun Min only now...HAHA~~Then, both of us had lots of stuffs to share with each other LOL~~Because we are really like brothers...sharing the same personalities...We walked around the whole complex and kept talking until Cady and Jing Guo were done with their "Mamma Mia" movie...hehe~~I just went back after that and basically that was how I had my wonderful outing yesterday...

*I thanked Jun Min for inviting me to this outing...it was really fun and memorable one!!*

**Thanks alot, Grace for your concern on me and Jun Min...we will be fine!!!**

~PET Training~

2008-09-27T20:06:00.000+08:00

Well, PET stands for Personal Empowerment Training...basically, it is a training for self-improvement and self-discovery...what we did there is pretty much like Career Guidance class...it was a really FUN training though...I have never expected it to turn out that way...it is a wonderful experience for me...

Firstly, everyone must choose a piece of paper which symbolize an animal and then later on we must make out the sounds of the respective animals we got to find our "family" members...Haha~~So i got the monkey lol...and I am pretty lucky though because Jing Guo got the monkey one as well..then both of us went on to search for other members...anddddd we found Esther!!! Haha...only 3 ppl though...after that, we got the chance to name our group...and we named it "Peaceful Dove" coz we all are the peaceful doves... (peaceful dove is one kind of the personality styles)...

Next up, we got to combine with another group to make a short sketch to portray some personality styles in the leader...it is kinda cool though as we all did the sketch very very spontaneously without even having any scripts like how others did...haha~~It was very hilarious with Joel in the group...

Oh ya, before that we had to draw our dream house too...and being suddenly changed to Powerful Eagle personality, we drew out an ambitious house lol...with roller coaster going all over the house, underground armed forces, personal airport, zoo and so on...HAHA~~quite lame but funny LOL...

After that, we had a break and most of us went to McD for lunch...and back to the place an hour later...then we played the Mafia game...pretty lazy to explain here but it is purely fun and tricky to me...I love it though~~Lastly, we did another sketch and this is the best activity that I have enjoyed for the day...My group consists of the Jun Min, Chia Wei, Jing Guo, Esther, Alicia and me...haha...we got our ideas pretty spontaneously and very funny lol...It is really a funny and lame one but a truly memorable for me...it is because I made a very funny act at the ending LOL!!! I fell down on the floor just like a log and smashed my face on the ground...it looked so real though but that is what I heard from others...not that I seen it though...I NEED THE VIDEO...because I have no idea how I could actually do that...HAHA~~

~Moments of Endurement~

2008-09-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

Life was great today...had a good session of group counseling...although it's a RUSH one and I felt very sorry for my friend to make it this way...hopefully she will be fine..after all, it's my fault who make her feel this way...sigh~~

Not in the very good mood of blogging today...just wanted to update abit here...well, I guess I have been too "emo" in my previous posts and even in the college...I am very sorry for that...it is not that I wanted to be like that...I have been thinking too much lately, maybe that is the factor which causes it though..

One more important thing, I just heard of the news of the incident regarding the Chad student from HELP...it happened in Wangsa Maju...for more info, just look up for it in Google...type anything like HELP Chad Wangsa Maju also will do...oh well, it's pretty tragic and I feel so sorry for him...guess the level of moral and ethical values here are still not up to the expected standard though..sigh~~

Too tired though...will continue sum day...

~The Misconceptions~

2008-09-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

So, this is the 4th week of my degree studies...well, I have to say that there's alot of assignments to be done and it's like every single week also got assignments to be completed...HAHA~~Busy time I would say but then I received some strange responses from my friends lol...

First Case - Xin Rou
"Why you are always so free 1??? Why you seem like nothing to do geh??"

Second Case - Yee Lee
"I know you finish everything already la...no need to tell me, don't show off~~"

Third Case - Sim Ee
"I know you got assignments to do one...you don't need to help me la...do your stuffs la..."

Fourth Case - Shean
"Doin wat tere??" (She would ask this lots of time lol~~)

Fifth Case - Huey Yee aka Emily
"You are so kind la...always help people 1...thx"

Well, there's alot more weird or funny comments lol...but I can't seem to remember it here...HAHA~~It is really funny though...because I really got the same amount of assignments as everyone is the Psychology degree program would have...but it seems like I am very free...NO!!! That is so WRONG okkkk??? I am just as busy as they all (my Psy degree same intake friends)...who said I am free?? OMG!!! To tell the truth, I am pretty stressed up all the time..pushing myself to the limits in order to get my assignments done...stressing myself like crazy to get myself hyped up to revise or review my notes and textbooks...

*I'm sorry if I interrupted any of those people who do not wish to chat with me...That is one of the solution that I always use to de-stress myself...I am DEAD SERIOUS AT THIS~~Chatting with people will make me more relaxed and calm...I will even get happier too... ^^

~Handbags for Sale~

2008-09-21T16:34:00.000+08:00

Well, recently I get to know this friend and she happens to be selling trendy and nice handbags...I took a glance at the bags on the website and it's really quite captivating though...girls out there who read my blog, do check it out at www.jimfashion.com.my.

No worries about it, I'm not forcing anyone yea...Just helping my friend to promote it here...do leave me a comment here, or contact me if any of you are interested with any of those handbags.

Thanks in advance ^^ Cheers!!!

~Global Peace Festival 2008~

2008-09-21T15:17:00.000+08:00

Well, recently I said that I'm involved with the Power of 10 Cents project which is part of the events held under the Global Peace Festival 2008 which will be held in Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil on the 19th October 2008...This is the promo video with Dr. Sheikh Mustaphar, Jaclyn Victor and Daniel Lee are the ambassadors of GPF for Malaysia...

~Busy Busy Busy~

2008-09-19T17:52:00.000+08:00

Ever since I enter college, I have only 1 phrase to say..."it's time to get busy!!!" LOL~~Well, first; I have a training next Sat which is PET from 9am to 5pm...swt =.=" Anyway, college life is always busy isn't it?? Haha~~Guess i'll get used to it soon...recently, i agreed to join Siyan with the Power of 10 Cent project in conjunction with the Global Peace Festival 2008. I'm feeling so happy and grateful to be able to collaborate with the RUSH team again...and I'm very sure this time we will work alot more better than last time...

Hehe~~Had the meeting with the "10 Cent gang" which consists of Siyan, Burn, Anne, Vidhya, Julian, Ser Li and me...Julian and Ser Li are new inclusion as the other 5 are from the RUSH team...anyway, this project is really interesting as it's part of an sub event of the Global Peace Festival 2008 in Stadium Putra, Bukit Jalil...Our job is to help to raise funds for the kids in Cambodia in order to improve the quality of life...Our aim is to get as much 10 cents as possible so the kids in Cambodia can actually live a better life in the future...it's a really meaningful project and I'm glad I can be part of the organizing committee...^^

Anyhow, I still got tons of other stuffs to do though...tomorrow I need to watch a movie and then must do a movie review as part of the assignments...sigh~~After that, I still have a few assignments that are due after Hari Raya holidays...oh dear...BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!! I'm going to be super busy doing my assignments soon and might not even be able to chat much...THIS IS WHAT I CALL THE TRANSITION OF LIFE...Haha~~Psychology is a wonderful subject of all sorts...it's fun but yet it's freaking tiring...LOL!!!!

Lastly, today is a good day or can be said bad day too...well, I finally submitted my LLS assignment...though it's only 2 marks but everyone seemed so worried about it and mine was very badly done I suppose...but nvm, 1 mark is good enough for me...after the class, I asked the lecturer a couple of questions and now he knows my name..OMG~~I'll be dead soon in class...anyway, I went to lunch with Grace, Jun Min, Chia Wei and Jing Guo later on...Had a quite filling plateful of economy rice...Oh well, I'm so tired and worn off today...still need to study 3 chapters of LLS later so I can do the movie review properly tomorrow...sigh~~