~2011, A post to begin but not sure will it last~

So, here I am...with a random post again...I am not in the very good mood for blogging but I have this interesting thing to share (at least interesting to me)...I welcome all comments and critics as it is a hugely debatable issue~~

I'm going to talk about Positive Selfishness vs Negative Selfishness - I won't call this a theory but it's a concept I explored and discovered throughout my 22 years of life ^^

Positive Selfishness

Well, I will make this short...what I mean here is that WE (YES WE ALL!!!) are selfish in nature...believe it or not, we are...no point denying it...so, let's see how I define this:

1) We are being selfish because we are trying to think of others (might be empathy or sympathy) - HOW? Example: When organizing a party, why some people are excluded? It may be because the group hates the people or felt discomfort with them...I know it sounds negative but don't you all see it happening all the time? Even to me, myself...Think again peeps~~

2) We are being selfish because we are trying to protect our goals, principles and bla bla bla. Example: Why would someone still lend money to a person (be it relative, acquaintances or anyone) when he/she knows that it involves a crazily high risk? YES, some may be forced to do it but what do you think about those who weren't forced? Being a helpful soul, some might really want to help because they feel it satisfies them in doing so..the joy or feeling that heightened up their self-esteem or so (No point debating as everyone has their own viewpoint so alot people might disagree with me, but what I want to say is THIS KIND OF PEOPLE DO EXIST, hence the behaviour as well)

3) We are being selfish because like it or not, it will win people's trust. Example: The honorable Mr. Lim Goh Tong..why would he be so selfish to not listening to other's viewpoints in buying the whole hill in the view of building GENTING? Some of you might say it's bold/bravery...or stupidity or whatsoever and see it as not a SELFISH act..Imagine you are his friend and he told you so...and you tried so hard to convince him but he still did it..IT'S STILL A SELFISH ACT as he did not even care about what others say..BUT you see how successful he is...and he gained all the reputation and trust from everyone...A BOLD/BRAVE ACT can be an act of SELFISHNESS but in a very POSITIVE way...I'm still far from reaching this level but peeps, LEARN FROM THIS..SELFISH IS NOT ALWAYS BAD when you do it POSITIVELY.

Negative Selfishness

1) People engage in this because they just think of their own benefits and so. Example: Some people really just want to piss others off by complaining about a surprise party thrown on them...come on, people tried so hard to throw a surprise for you...just appreciate it, or else why do they want to do it in the first place? They are trying to make these people happy and yet they got smack on their face just like that...can this be deemed NOT SELFISH NEGATIVELY?

2) People engage in this because they feel that it makes them superior. Example: Some people just want to help others (assignment, charity or so) because they feel doing so will make them getting all the respect and thus, they will feel like having a GODLY status. It really may have seemed quite good..but let's analyze this deeper, they help others just because they can achieve what is deemed as SUPERIOR to them...so are they really honest about the help? Are they putting all the effort in doing so? YES, some may really do so because of their principles and so..I admit those who do so deserve a big round of applause BUT what about those who don't?!?!

Well, I do not want to delve into this too deep as I know alot people might feel intimidated, hurt, aggrieved or so with me...I don't mind because I know this will certainly evoke various responses~~I am just telling the truth here...

THE EVIDENCE? Look around your friends and family...start analyzing...because all of you have or will validate this concept of mine..I don't even need to do show anyone...

P.S: I do admit I do practice NEGATIVE SELFISHNESS at times but I am more into POSITIVE SELFISHNESS...some may not agree with me..but I can tell you what I have done is all about my values and principles...and I dare to stand firm on this because IT IS EASIER SAID THAT DONE but I HAVE DONE IT =) AND STILL DOING IT~~

~HELPing?~

Haha...just a random post...

Where I feel I helped out as much as I could...

And she definitely appreciates it...

Good for her and for me ^^

Really pleased with it...though I wished for something more...

But nevermind, being in such healthy relationship makes me happy ^^

I hope they can hear me and get my blessings~~

Tata ^^

~Perseverance? Stupidity? Naivety? You decide~

Hey there fellow readers (whoever you are),

I am pretty fine this few weeks..midterms next week and so...gotta be super packed lol..Nothing much that I would like to address here~~

Just wanna rant myself for thinking so much..sigh~~Pathetic me :(

Anyway, recently I have been getting involved with some sort of dilemma..well, not gonna explain in detail but yea..it is bothering me somehow~~Not really sure what to do but definitely I need to seek out for more information and understanding first ^^

After that, I can get myself clear whether I shall go for it or not go for it...the goal is there..whether I should reach it or not and also whether I am able to reach it or not, time will tell~~

TIME, please guide me lol~~Or else I will be lost in somewhere..haha~~

Take care peeps, good luck and all the best in whatever you are doing...

Miss you all~~

~Weirdo~

As weird as I am, I really want to tell people how unique one could be...

And I always wish that everyone in HELP University College knows how different I could be as compared to anyone else in the university~~

My passion to help people just drives me to go beyond my personal boundaries and comfort zone ^^ It definitely requires alot of sacrifices but nevertheless, I enjoyed it alot!!!

Though I might put others before myself, but I never forget about what I want~~I love and enjoy my life entirely. Nothing I can regret about..

Stupidity and naivety is what people might see in me, but kindness and nice is what other people might see as well..So, it is always up to them to decide who I am...

After all, who would be the helping ones if people like me doesn't exist? Selfishness can lead people to personal glory but once they are dead, what does the glory means? Think about it~~People who have personal glories should be those who could contribute to the younger ones when they are no longer capable of doing up to the pressure and standards ^^

Year 3, Sem 1

My life in the beginning of year 3 started off very well...

Met a few new wonderful souls that truly brought the "real" identity out of me...

Peggy Neoh (My dear mui who is smart and so photogenic~~Blur at times but can be very nice...)

Chee Yan (A bubbly yet lovely girl~~Fast improving photographers who can really stress-free..can survive the tiredness and produce high quality work - SUPERGIRL!!)

Kelvin Tong (An inborn stand-up comedian who can cheer almost everyone with his jokes~~LOL...a very hardworking person who deserves a shining future in his life ^^)

Jun Hang (Another upcoming good photographer who can be really funny with his narcissism...self-proclaimed "handsome" but his self-confidence is undeniable great ^^ A nice person to talk to as well..can be a good companion and friend~~)

Not to forget some existing friends who somehow light up my life as well~~

Ocella (Nice as ever...bubbly when the need arise :P Can be very cute at times yet very caring ^^ A very nice and warm friend ^^)

Chia Wei (The sifu of photography - Somehow sparks some photography interest in me but still at the minimal level ^^ A quiet person in nature but can be very critical when it comes to topics of his interests~~)

Haha..of course there are more interesting people that has appeared...

Ywan Tyng (The girl with very unique names and features, not to sorry VERY TALL as well)...

Man Yee (A cute girl who is also the best friend of Chee Yan, two lovely girls there ^^) and

Chong Yong (My so-called twin brother LOL)...

See..my life has taken a dramatic change...ever since i met and hung out with such random new souls in my life..though I am not sure how long it may last but I am enjoying it as long as I could ^^ No matter how far these friendships remain, I will never forget what I have gone through with them...weeks of happiness...just knew most of them back then at the Psychology Challenge during mid-August..and some early this month~~

I can never imagine how happy I was whenever I am with them..even if I end up listening only and said nothing at all..I just do not like to speak up there because being me, i am always topicless and I found out that I seriously talk about academic stuffs alot (which bores people of course)..

Oh well, I am still lacking in proper communication skills..will see what I can improve before starting a topic next time ^^

For now, I will keep quiet~~As long as they appreciate my company, that is more than enough and satisfaction for me ^^ I just look bored from the outlook but deep inside, I really loved to be part of them for as long as we could be!!!

Crapped alot today but that underlines the reason why I am a changed individual now ^^ Thanks alot to all of them~~And some of my lovely friends, Xin Rou, Boon Chin, Shean, Grace, Valerie's Ong and Cheah, and many many more ^^

Love you all!! ^^

Love the reflection here ^^

The Bubbly girl (Chee Yan)

A moment I will treasure forever~~

My so-called twin brother here

~One Miserable Post~

It has been a year + since I last blogged...

No, I'm still not really back into blogging...

Just felt that I got something to express yet it cannot be told directly..

It's just that I feel I'm so dumb for not taking any actions...

Wanted a different outcome but yet too scared and afraid of it~~

How I wish the situation would not be this complicated and I can live far more happier than now!

Now, I can only sit down and pray for the best...knowing that it won't happen to me...even if I go for it...

Arghh!!! Stupid me...But well, as long as everyone is happy..why shall I complain more ^^

~A break~

Life has been turning in new fortunes for me ^^ Hehe...It's improving and getting better..*happy happy* I do not know why but I am really feeling happy and satisfied with my life recently though generally I might not =P

Anyhow, I am tired of blogging nowadays...decided to just tell people openly what I feel if they asked me...So I will take a break from blogging till I found the mood and urge to blog again =)

Not much to update here...just check out my facebook for more updates...Sorry ya =(